Struggling

[Kellie99]

Sooo not even quite sure where to begin. I have been diagnosed with panic disorder and GAD general anxiety disorder. December I went to rehab fo 5 days and stopped drinking. My dad has been here from the UK for going on 3 months sorting out his Visa and will be leaving any day now. I am 29 and a single mom, my son goes to his dad every other weekend and ever other wednesday. he will not help me with my son if it is "my time" as he calls it. Every time I have to talk to him regarding my son he is aggressive he does and says whatever he wants and because his mom has money he thinks that he is untouchable. He regards me as the worst piece of shit mother and says I dont care about my son., When all I do is care for and about him. People at my work openly hate me and try and get me fired because i am a different race to all of therm. When my dad leaves I am going to be all alone again and I just dont think that I can do it. I barely make ends meet, I am type one insulin dependent diabetic. I cant leave south africa as my sons father wont even let me take him to uk on holiday to visit my family, i feel like i messed up my life and I just want to dissapear. I dont know how much longer i can do this.

[Sober2007]

Thank you for sharing what's going on and congrats on stopping drinking. I can only share my experience with you as a fellow anxiety sufferer as well as a recovering alcoholic. It was in AA that I found a solution not only to stay sober, but also how to do something I could never do before, which was to deal with life on life's terms without taking a drink. You might consider checking out a few meetings. It could be helpful to you. The website for AA in South Africa is here: aasouthafrica.org.za/

[UB4me]

I'm sorry you are suffering. I, too, suffer from panic disorder. Have you seen a doctor?