ok day

[purl1]

Having a good day for a change. I haven't taken any ativan all day and I feel ok. I am surviving the day. I had this happen the other day and the day after was not good. I was getting bad thoughts(ideations). I am hoping it doesn't happen again tomorrow. One good day with a really bad day to follow. I am happy that today has been so good. It gives me hope that maybe I'm on the road to recovery. Just hope I don't crash tomorrow. I'm a little scared about it.

[deblhotchkiss]

So glad you are having a good day. I know how it feels to be up one day then crash the next. I really hope today is a sign of good things to come.

[purl1 in reply to deblhotchkiss]

thanks, I really hope it is a good thing. the bad days scare me. I am so afraid of the thoughts that I have. One day at a time and with support from family maybe there will be more good than bad. My fingers are crossed.

[deblhotchkiss in reply to purl1]

That is exactly how I feel. The bad days are so hard and scary it’s so easy to feel hopeless. I have to always tell myself that having a bad day doesn’t mean good days are not to come. I’m glad you have the support of your family. So do I and I’m so grateful for it. I’ve got my fingers crossed for you too.

[gfranklin12]

That is wonderful, and if you need to reach out then by all means please do so... we are all in this together.

[hypercat54]

Well maybe if you take them every day you won't have a bad one? Or are you only meant to take them as and when? x

[purl1 in reply to hypercat54]

I can take them as needed but I like to take the least amount possible and try to go without if I can. I don't want to become too dependant on them. I don't know if taking them would make a difference or not.

[Kat63]

The same thing happened to me a few days ago....I had a really great day, then a rough day. I hope your next day goes good.

[purl1 in reply to Kat63]

Hi Kat, how did your move go?

[Kat63 in reply to purl1]

The move part is over. Now I have to unpack. I brought my cat with me. My boyfriend also has a cat. We’re keeping the two cats in two separate rooms, but they’re both still nervous. My bf is annoyed about this.

[JAYnLA]

Fabulous! I'd recommend that you notice what your mind is doing... preparing for a bad day... this is how our anxious minds work. You've gotten through every bad day you've had so far, so if you have one tomorrow I expect you'll do just as well. Your 'good day' really does mean you're healing - you aren't broken. The healthy you is still alive and well. I loved hearing about it. Thank you.

[lostgirl75]

Did you go for a walk as soon as you feel that anxious feeling go for a walk it might take your attack away. I know if I don’t exercise for one day I have anxiety the next day that’s unbearable. And I take anxiety meds three times a day every day

[momenj5]

Glad to hear about your good day. Exercising has helped me a great deal. I also have started and im only 3 days into it but CBT therapy on my own which i've learned from this group helps as well. Someone shared with me about CBT cognitive diary which is a free app that i have started using as well as a website called brightside health. My doctors gave me lorazepam for short term use but it is strong medication. My obgyn mentioned zoloft as something to take on a regular basis. For now I'm taking B-complex, magnesium and lemon balm as natural ways to help. I also have cbd gummies. plus i know i have the lorazepam if it does get bad which helps me to not stress about it. Sending positive vibes your way with many good days ahead!

[purl1 in reply to momenj5]

Thanks for the info on brightside and the diary I will check them out.

[Casewest20]

Purl1,

I have only read this one post from you. I’m sure you have posted more and I apologize for not having read any other background information.

The word “Ativan” jumped out at me, so figured I would take a look😊.

As I said, I don’t know anything other than this one post-And I hope I’m not being presumptuous. If so, my sincere apologies...

Just wanted you to know, as I’m sure you’ve been told, you are not alone. I suffer from depression, anxiety, and have had issues with substances. I am in the midst of sort of a taper myself.

SO...My rambling point is, IF you are going through trying to stop certain medications, I can definitely relate in every way.

Even though I know this only does so much good, if any – I want to repeat that you ARE NOT alone.

[purl1 in reply to Casewest20]

I'm not so much having a problem with being addicted to the ativan. It's that I don't want to become addicted to it so I try to only take .25 mg a day. I was taking 1.5 mg so I have come down quite a bit. the most I take in a day is .50mg . I read posts on here about coming down off of them and it just makes me nervous.

[Casewest20 in reply to purl1]

I think it’s great that you’re being proactive about it. Again, I was going on limited information – and that was my own choice as I could have looked at more of your posts but didn’t. You sound like you’re doing great w Ativan... you are participating and allowing it to be a part of your emotional and mental health, not depending upon it alone.👌🏼❤️

[gfranklin12]

No you are not!!!