what’s going on 😭😭

[Garbagebitch]

what’s going on 😭😭 why do i feel like you’re hiding something from me 😭😭😭 why do i feel like this 😭😭

[quitter333]

It's because we ARE hiding something. The fact that we trust in you and wish you all best :3

[Garbagebitch in reply to quitter333]

what do you mean ? 😔

[Redheaded-girl]

You feel like this, because depression is a demon and it is probably one of the most powerful ones. I deal with this problem on the daily. I can hear what my loved ones are telling me, but my mind tries to convince me of something else. It isn’t easy and I by no means am on the healing side, but my best advice is to take some deep breaths. When I get overwhelmed like that, I will go to the mirror and really look at myself and say “I am better than this and I’m stronger than this.” It also helps if you have a support system, one that understands your breakdowns are not really you, but just an extension of this evil illness. Find the people who are going to pick you up and tell you that you’re loved and these feelings are normal, but together, you can overcome them and you can show yourself the love that YOU DESERVE! ❤️❤️❤️

[Garbagebitch in reply to Redheaded-girl]

that’s the problem i can’t even look at the mirror cause all i can see is garbage .. i feel so small i feel so down .. i’m worthless 😔

[Redheaded-girl in reply to Garbagebitch]

I’m not going to pretend like I don’t feel this way, because I do. Just yesterday I had about three breakdowns and went to the bathroom and just looked at myself in the mirror crying. I felt so down, hopeless, like I don’t deserve anything. This crap, IS NOT easy to deal with by any means, but it can be something that you can live with. I personally believe that I will always have depression, but I’m working on at least learning how to cope with it. I was diagnosed with severe depression and generalized anxiety disorder, it sucks. It sucks being 26 and knowing I have thoughts of not wanting to be around. It sucks that I haven’t even really lived life yet, but I don’t have any motivation to want to see what it could be. May I ask, what’s making you feel like you’re garbage?

[Garbagebitch in reply to Redheaded-girl]

Because my boyfriend said i am ? And my family just use me as an insurance .. they’re just nice to me when they need something.. because i’m not like others who have a better life .. because i feel so alone ? Because i feel so small to the point that i feel like i’m no one

[Garbagebitch in reply to Garbagebitch]

And because of that i feel like my boyfriend is hiding something from me and i’m so scared that he might find someone alot better than me .. 😭😭😭

[Redheaded-girl in reply to Garbagebitch]

Alright sweet girl, take a deep breath first of all okay! Let me tell you something, you’re so incredibly strong, just by the fact you’re on this platform talking about these issues. I know what you’re going to say, “How am I strong if I’m like this?” That’s literally what I say, every time someone tells me I’m strong, but there is a little part of me, that recognizes the strength. A lot of people shy away from talking about mental illness because it is seen as a taboo, but in reality it is just as real as anything else. If you had a broken arm, would you just let it go and hope it heals on its own? Absolutely not, you would go to a medical professional and get that crap fixed! Have you ever looked into therapy? I’m not going to pretend it is easy because it is a struggle for me, but I do think having a professional who is not previously involved in the situation, is very helpful. I’m sorry if your family makes you feel some type of way. It took me a long time to get comfortable telling my parents, just how depressed I was. For a while, they were in that “You’re stronger than this and you need to be stronger than this” mode. It was a REALLY HARD time. They have come around and are more accepting now, but the talks are still hard. Is there anything specific that is bothering you more than others right now?

[Garbagebitch in reply to Redheaded-girl]

i don’t know i just feel so sad and empty like sometimes if i try to think of something it just become nothing i’ll just realize that i’m just stocked looking at nothing .. like i was lost

[Redheaded-girl in reply to Garbagebitch]

I feel all of this on a really deep level, I really do. I have been going through so much with depression that I don’t even like going to bed anymore at night, because you just have dreams about the stuff that is hurting you. I’m not sure if you have the option of medicine or possibly a therapist, but if you do, I highly recommend it. I think my medicine is what helps me from possibly making a permanent decision that I can’t take back.

[Garbagebitch in reply to Redheaded-girl]

i’ve never been to a therapist

[Redheaded-girl in reply to Garbagebitch]

Have you ever considered going to one?

[Hidden in reply to Garbagebitch]

i think your just too good for your surroundings..i really do..i feel your strength but your not showing/using any of it.. you need to..your knocking yourself down..you are so worthy..