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Hi guys I’ve been dealing with generalised anxiety disorder and health anxiety for a year now and it’s kept me from daily life eg having a job going out with friends playing sports. In around March February time I was in a really really bad place I wasn’t sleeping at all really felt crap all the time was randomly bursting into tears out of frustration. But recently I’ve been starting to feel better no more pain or feeling generally unwell. But I just feel like I’m not myself like the last part of me was ebbing say when I was in pain and feeling ill all the time that was the transition from me going like crazy like I’ve been pushed over the edge by the stress and anxiety. I have been sleeping better and eating better recently and doing more which my friends and family all say is why I feel so strange and the fact that I haven’t done things for so long obviously I’m going to feel strange? What do I do what’s going on and can anyone help?

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knittingninja profile image
knittingninja

Could it be that you're doing things differently from before and feeling better? In my experience and from what I read about getting better. That foreign feeling may just be recovery. (My opinion)

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Meyer_Gdmnx in reply to knittingninja

That’s pretty much what everyone else thinks to be honest with you thank you for your reply I wish you luck with overcoming your challenges

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NeuronerdDoaty

It doesn’t mean your brain chemicals are correct. When we have physical pain/issues and mental issues (possibly because of the pain) we can really get out of alignment. For me the only thing that works is a clearing the mind meditation. I do this twice a day instead of the usual once for 15 minutes in the morning. Empty the mind or focus on each body part one at a time. I call it my homeostasis meditation. Best of luck to you.

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Meyer_Gdmnx in reply to NeuronerdDoaty

Best of luck to you as well thank you for your reply

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quitter333

yeah emotional trauma leaves scars.

e.g. people who have severely bad drug trips often tell about how it changed them (same with good). Emotions leave long lastong scars

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Perhaps try to find somethong very emotional positively, so you can just make more positive layers for your mind.

imo sleep, gym and proper nutrition can make most probls go away. your ffriends n family are correct.

stop overthinking why you feel, just do

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Jeff1943

Meyer, I will give you what I believe is the best advice possible, something that with patience and persistence will enable your full recovery. It may not be what you are expecting though: it is no quick fix. After all, you spent many months, maybe years, getting into this state. Allow a few more months to recover.

Once there was a psychiatrist who suffered from anxiety disorder. She developed a method that helped her recover and spent the rest of her life advocating it through lectures, books, tv appearances and private consultations.

Her first book was published 50 years ago. In the last few years there have been 1,600 Amazon reader reviews on all her books. Over 90% rated her method Very Good or Excellent. Draw your own conclusions but her method has withstood the test of time.

She believed that anxiety disorder occurs when we reach anxiety overload. We can't take any more. This may be because of over work, disappointment, toxic relationships, grief, loss. The list is endless but the result the same. Our nervous system becomes hyper sensitive.

In this state every small problem appears to be 10 times more daunting that it is. We imagine all sorts of illnesses and our malfunctioning nerves supply symptoms indistinguishable from the real thing. Also agoraphobia. Claustrophobia. Social anxiety.

Fear sets in. What the Hell is happening to me? Trouble is the release of fear hormones only serves to keep our nerves over sensitised. Which produces more symptoms. Which produces more fear. Which produces more symptoms. We are stuck in a vicious cycle that never ends. We fight hard to recover but without success.

Claire Weekes answer to this is to first stop fighting. Fighting causes more stress and tension. You need less not more of those. Instead accept for the moment all the symptoms and strange thoughts anxiety plays on you. Accept them utterly, agree to co-exist with them for the time being. You know in your heart of heart it's all false and fake, it's not real. Believe the test results and diagnosis your doctor gives you. No, he didn't miss something. So why fear something that is only a thought caused by nervous sensitisation.

When you feel the first flash of fear do not add second fear. The symptoms will remain, I told you it will take time. And they are just as discomforting. But you now have understanding and reassurance, you can put up with the strange thoughts and panic attacks a little longer.

Gradually you cease to flood your sensitised nerves with the fear hormone they thrive on. Gradually they start to recover, to become less and less over sensitive. Keep it up for long enough and they will completely recover. And one fine day you'll feel fear-free and normal once again.

This then is an outline of the acceptance method that has helped untold thousands to recover. It is described fully in Claire Weekes' first book. In the U.S. it's titled 'Hope and help for your nerves'. If you're lucky enough to be British 😊 the same book is titled 'Hope and help for your nerves'. It's short, easy for tired minds to read and devoid of scientific terms. It's also readily available new or used on Amazon for the same cost of a couple of hamburgers.

That's the story, Meyer. It in no way contradicts any other therapy or doctor's help you may be receiving. If you only read one more book in your life, this is that book.

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Meyer_Gdmnx in reply to Jeff1943

Thank you very very much sincerely your reply was a huge help I am lucky enough to British thank you for your reply I’ve seen some of her stuff on YouTube but nothing in immense detail. But I’ll certainly give it more of a look

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Jeff1943 in reply to Meyer_Gdmnx

YouTube is fine but to fully understand her method you have to start at the beginning. That first book.

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Hairclips in reply to Jeff1943

Seriously. Thank you so much for this, again. ❤️

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Keepmoving71

Don't ever don't overanalyze it just be grateful that you're getting better and slowly begin to integrate send your love back into your life there's no rush take your time don't overwhelm yourself

So glad you're getting better God bless you

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Keepmoving71

Sorry talk to text errors slowly integrate the things that you love back into your life there's no rush

I feel like I can relate with how you're feeling to some degree. I started seeing a therapist in Feb and in the last couple weeks started taking an anti-anxiety medication. I'm a much more anxious person than I realized and only now have truly seen how it's affected my life. I feel like my mindset is in a strange place as well. I'm trying to be more social as I don't have any friends and haven't cared to for a long time. I've been experiencing a mixed bag of emotions: from anger to sadness to worthlessness to motivated. It has caused me to be more needy for affection from my wife which she has been great at giving for support. I'm still trying to process everything I'm feeling and improving my self-esteem. Sorry this wasn't any advice you were seeking but I'm new to this forum and was glad to see there is someone in a similar circumstance.

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Kkimm in reply to

Hi

What you are describing is very much what I feel too. What medication are you on. You said anti anxiety meds which usually means Benzodiazapines not antidepressants. I think however you probably mean antidepressants

It is very interesting to describe someone who has felt very similar. I have become more sociable as a result of my antidepressant, Venlafaxine and also gained more insight into myself and discovered that I had hidden anxiety and self esteem issues that I never realized I had before.

Very best wishes

Kim

in reply to Kkimm

The medication I started taking is buspirone. The psychiatrist told me it was anti-anxiety because it works differently than anti-depressants. It doesn't target depression which is why I agreed to start taking it. I don't believe I'm depressed just highly anxious especially in social interactions. Glad to hear yours is working for you. I was always afraid of possible side effects but its been beneficial to me so far. What have you done other than your medication to address your anxiety and self esteem?

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Kkimm in reply to

I followed a programme of activities I planned for myself whether or not I had anxiety symptoms and completely ignored these and felt I had been successful just by completing it. It was a balance of excercise, social activities, creative activities voluntary work and relaxation. I have retired so I have the time. The exercise is particularly important I think. I stick to doing at least an hours fast walking a day so it is not alot but I do walks of around 6 miles with friends and short runs 3 times a week also. Swimming particularly in cold water is meant to be extremely helpful and I try to swim in the sea a few times a week in the summer because I live on the coast

This programme seemed to help alot. I am now more prepared to take on new challenges etc and just appreciate life so much more having been so ill with GAD and Depression two years ago. It took about four months ftom starting antidepressants for the anxiety and depression to go and around a year to fully recover. I felt alot worse than I had done when I first started taking them but I knew it could take a few months to get the benefit so stuck at them and am so glad I did. I will stay on the antidepressants for the foreseeable future as I know the condition could come back. I do not feel it has fully gone but just that I have recovered very well and in some ways am better than before I took the medication. I am a different person but for the better really even though I did not think I was anxious or depressed before my condition developed after 2 life traumas. I still have a few symptoms at times and just accept them as part of me now.

I wish you and everyone else who is experiencing anxiety or depression good luck and a speedy recovery.

Kim

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marheart

GAD does change us. I'm not the person I've been my whole adult life. The anxiety has changed my life so much I have problems finding me. Seems to be part of the disorder.

Talk Therapy and meds do help. Don't go it alone. Get help with your individual areas that are screaming for a balance to life.

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Esther228

Hi there,

I am so glad that you are feeling better. Overcoming your anxieties and feeling better is a real praise report! I wonder if what you are feeling is just a symptom from the changes; you know like when you lose weight and yet you still see yourself as fat, so you still think you are fat? That is what happened in my life. I had lost about twenty pounds and it was like my mind had to process and accept this new me…and the reality that my old nature (and body) had changed. For me, eating was a big part and focus in my life.

Anxiety for me had that same effect. When I was anxious, my focus got off-kilter and I would start to get anxious even before there was any reason to be anxious. It was a horrible feeling. I prayed a lot and read lots of Bible verses in order to find some peace and comfort.

Have you been trying to get through all the health and anxiety issues on your own, or did you receive treatment?

Do you attend church? I’ve found my church to be such a great place to meet people and make long-lasting friendships. The ladies I have met have been through a lot with me and it is so nice to have someone be there for moral support. I am sure thinking of you and am thanking the Lord that you are feeling better.

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