Just overwhelmed and stressed

[itsalwaysme]

I am so new to what is happening to me. I cant deal with it by myself. I feel alone and overwhelmed. Panic attacks depression. the people I thought I could count on are all pulling away. I ahve always been in control of myself . I just can't find anyone to talk to. I started a new position 8 months ago and its not working out. I didn;t get the training I was told I would. boss went on several vacations over several months. 1st for 2 weeks on my first day alone after the person who had the position retired after 22 years. So I talked to boss she agrees its not working out. I make to many mistakes. I look for new position in company and she tells them all kinds of bad things and not all of them my fault. now the other division may not hire me. Im getting to old to look for new job. My husband acts like its me thats the problem I asked for all of this. Just do your job and keep your mouth shut. Grass isn't always greener on the other side. I am having anxiety attacks. I can't sleep. I feel stupid and worthless and alone. I keep telling myself its not all me thats the problem but all the negative gets in my way. Maybe I should have just stayed in my old position but I had a chance to move up and I took it. Why is that wrong? I am doing the job just not the way the old person did and still to many mistakes. Im just done

[Kat63]

You weren’t wrong to take a chance and try to move up in your career. I think the company could have handled the situation better; certainly you should have gotten the promised training.

Is there any possibility you could go back to your old position?

[itsalwaysme in reply to Kat63]

No they removed that position from the company.