In tears

[ForwardBound]

Why does dating suck so bad? Why cant I get it right? Why see my choices so poor? Im going to die alone and this pushes my anxiety into an emotional black hole. Im so fucking sad right now. I deleted all social media apps except this one becauae seeing couples hurts so much.

[Hidden]

What's worse? Being alone and seeing couples together or being together and completely unattracted to your spouse and seeing couples together

[Hope_less in reply to Hidden]

I am to the point that I pretty much hate my spouse. We were what I'd call happy for the first 2 years of our marriage and these last 3 have been nothing but a nightmare for me. My husband chose drugs over me so I feel like a complete failure. I can watch a tv show about a happy couple and cry my eyes out wondering why I can't have that kind of relationship.

[Hidden in reply to Hope_less]

Oh my God.... I did the same thing when we watched a star is born. I was so sad and angry how absolutely opposite our relationship was that I barely slept that night.

[ForwardBound in reply to Hidden]

Both sound miserable and Ive lived both. At this point, Id be grateful for the company. Thats how fucked up I feel.

[jkl5500]

Have you ever tried meetup.com ? It's NOT a dating site, it's a site where you can attend events and be with people with similar interests. Of course, you just might find somebody nice there too, but that's not the main reason for going. At the very least, you could spend an evening with like-minded people who have the same hobbies or interests that you do.

[ForwardBound in reply to jkl5500]

I signed up a long time ago but never participated

[jkl5500 in reply to ForwardBound]

I encourage you to take another look. There are a zillion things on there, and there has to be something that appeals to you. At least you'd be out of the house, and around people. Why not take some "baby steps" in this area of your life, and just get out more and be sociable for a little while? It will improve your mood.

[noseknows]

I like your display name "ForwardBound" - it is positive. Continue going forward! Yes, dating is overrated, mainly because people do not want to take the time to get to know someone for who they are. Its not that you are not getting it right, its that the right person hasn't found you. Find something that you enjoy and encourage yourself through it. When your focus is on something that makes you happy, its contagious. Best wishes.

[Hope_less]

I am actually married but still feel like the loneliest person in the world. My husband is on drugs really bad so I rarely see him and when I do we're either arguing or totally ignoring each other. I can't even imagine trying to date again in today's world. I pretty much know divorce is in the near future for me and I have no family or friends either but the thought of trying to meet someone new makes me so sick and nervous. I think I am just destined to be one of those people who dies completely and utterly alone. I am so sorry you're going through this. Being lonely is such a horrible feeling. I cry myself to sleep every single night.