Weekends are the worst

[Melaxx]

Today I woke up at 7 am after a restless night and I lying down /sit and lying down again all day ( the day is not finish yet only 17:19 😭) no tv on no music on nothing everything irritates me . I’m dredging tomorrow 😰

[JAYnLA]

If you can take a walk (the longer the better) I've found that it helps. At first, recovering from this thing means always having to do things we really don't want to do. But it is how we heal - this is proven. Hang in there. Weekends used to terrify me - now they are just occasionally uncomfortable. It's taken some time but it is getting better - it will for you, too.

[Melaxx in reply to JAYnLA]

Has been to long now , I can’t be bother going out I didn’t even washed my face this morning, wearing house lounge clothes, I’m to proud to go out like this , I hate ppl feeling sorry for me , I rather hiding in the house , I wish I could go to sleep and never wake up , I think there’s a point where suicide is a rational option, I think the only person upset about it will be my mother , I only hear or see my son once a week ( no loss for him) selfish as it sound I don’t want my mother goes before me , I can’t deal with any pain anymore. Thank you for the replay , I hope I didn’t sound ungrateful.

[JAYnLA in reply to Melaxx]

You're having a really bad patch. They hurt. I know them well. You can get through this. I am certain of it.

[Hidden]

What happens tomorrow? Deep breaths

[Melaxx in reply to Hidden]

More of the same or hopefully I’ll stop breathing during the night .

[Hidden in reply to Melaxx]

Hopefully that won't happen

[-Sasha-]

They're the worst for me too. Seem to feel the loneliest on weekends and the depression likes to come in with guns blazing. I try to get out at least one day to do something with my lil ones, but when I do I still struggle to enjoy it. Then I just feel guilty and like a horrible mom. Anyway, you're not alone. I truly hope it's a better day for you tomorrow. Best wishes.

~S~

[Hollick]

In thoughts and prayers.