I wish I could go back...

[DistressedPoe]

I wish I could go back to being happy. I'm so afraid of everything these days. Y'know...I've been trying to be better. I've always loved who I am, always comfortable in my own skin. But these days I'm so confused. I'm so scared that I might change who I am. That I may become someone I don't want to be (be it positive or negative) it just...feels off with who I am. With who I want to be. I am who I am. Why can't I just be who I want to be ? Why do I feel pressure to be someone I'm not ? Nobody is pressuring me. My brothers, my parents, my friends, they all say I'm fine. That I don't need to worry. That I won't become someone I'm not. But I'm just so scared. I'm scared because I'm so different from my mother. I'm scared I'll become like her. I'm scared if I feel calm, it means I've finally succumbed to my fears. I feel scared of leaving my house. Not that I feel panicked. But I'm scared I will. How do I get this to stop ? I want to stop feeling this way. I want to be chill. As chill as I can be. Why do I always get anxious over such things.

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Do your best in understanding you are safe. All your worrying may it ease up for you. Know you are a strong person who can overcome all this. We are never given what we can not handle. You are very strong within yourself and deep inside I know you know it. Find that strength within you and all is possible. Positivity will be with you as to the light which is always upon you. Stay tough. You have much support.

Look forward to changes in you getting better. Such thinking is a start to fade all this negativity away from you as to being more opened to what you are capable of. 😊

[Rick1on1]

What is your mother like?