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Hi I'm new here joined late last night. I'm not too good at this writing anyways, I have been dealing with depression, anxiety, ptsd and probably many more for most of my life. I've been on antidepressants and anxiety medication since I was in my late 20's. Though I believe they don't do much...I have never seem to get along with anyone for very long, my adult children have finally gave up on me. I've never really had any close friends. Seems like I'm constantly upsetting and hurting the ones I love the most. I hate how I am, I hate me period. I can't seem to cope with anything. I've always put others first but then get upset when they aren't they for me in return. I have always felt that no one loved me my entire life. That I'm unworthy of their love, that I'm a bad person, that I don't deserve to be happy. I could go on and on but I will stop here for now.

[Kat63]

Have you done talk therapy? Meds are excellent, but talking things out is a big help too.

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I've started seeing one back in 15' only twice then my mom passed away and she moved out of state, but haven't gave up. I'm seeing a new one on the 15th of next month.

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I’ve only been on here for a couple of days but talking to people and having people be there for me and replying to my post offering to talk, has meant a lot. I relate to what you have went through and I’m sorry that you are going through this, I’m open to talk if you need to.

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Thank you! That means a lot to me.

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No one has loved me my whole life either my parents, siblings I haven't talked to in decades, abusive husband etc. I learned to love myself and try to be the best me I can be. I have no friends or family but if I'm at peace with myself and help others I feel better. Try volunteering. I do and I get love from strangers and I help them as well.

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I've always wanted to do volunteer work just never knew where to start.

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Try nursing homes and animal shelters. It such fun, especially with kids and so rewarding.

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What a wonderful ideal! I have been thinking for the last few years to do wheels on meals...just seems like something always gets in the way...

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Helping others really helps you escape your reality and see that others have it worse. I know it doesn't lessen your pain but helping others makes you feel good and forget about your problems for a bit. God will reward you for it.

[EndeavourMorse]

HI My name is Endeavour i have anxiety and depression and noone understands i have tried going to the doctor and he referred me to the mental health team but they turned me away i feel anxious and i hate crowds i get tired easy and then i cry i can't work i panic at anything which probably a little thing but is a big deal to me i cry if someone shouts at me for nothing or when people make remarks about certain things it makes me depressed. if you need to talk i will be there for you.

Endeavour

[Hidden in reply to EndeavourMorse]

And I too will be there if you need to talk.