Seeking help after several years

[purpletomcat]

Brand new on this site, I found it whilst finding contact details for my GP (which is out of hours until tomorrow now). I have never spoken to a GP about either of these issues before.

I expect to talk to my GP tomorrow about Anxiety (which I know 100% I have) and depression, which people (mostly family) have been telling me about for several months. I suspect I have been suffering from that for several years though.

Last year I honestly think I would have ended up in hospital due to severe anxiety attacks I was having because of stress at work. I was extremely lucky to have a former colleague tell me about her new job and the massive improvement it had made to her health, and that they were hiring. 2 months later I was so relieved to be offered the job and that I could finally hand in my notice after 10 years . (The job btw is less hours, more money and feels like half the work as work related stress has completely disappeared).

But the depression on the other hand has been years in the making, when I moved out on my own I was addicted to MMORPGs. (Seriously addicted - a day would be work 8 hours, sleep 4-7 hours, game 10-12 hours depending on if I needed to go food shopping or not). I have been in 2 proper relationships during that time, 1st one I kicked her out of my flat because she was a control freak and didn't want me to go to work because she thought I would see other women. The second ended more amicably, but was because I told her I didn't love her anymore. Luckily she understood as she is one of the people that has finally gotten me to make the initial appointment.

So here I am now, single, living alone, and depressed.

[brokenlight]

I’m glad you’re here & welcome