idk what i’m doing

[scaryaries]

idk what’s going on with me but every night i get ridiculously depressed. it doesn’t matter how good of a day i had, as soon as the sun goes down, so does my mood. nothing will trigger it but it gets so bad like i get so depressed i can’t do anything except think about how badly i want to hurt myself or try end my life again. i relapsed after not cutting for about 3 years & i’m so disappointed in myself because now i can’t stop. idk i’m just rambling but yeah.

[JAYnLA]

Hey Aries. More often than not I get a bit depressed betwwwn 4PM and 8PM. It often lifts between 8P and 10P. Does yours lift as well?

[scaryaries in reply to JAYnLA]

unfortunately not, as soon as my mood drops, it stays low & i feel like the only solution is to hurt myself. sometimes i’ll feel better in the morning but that never certain.

[JAYnLA in reply to scaryaries]

Have you talked to a doctor about this pattern? Regardless, let’s think about not going all the way to self harm. Let’s think about moving through something predictable (the evening blues) and getting to the other side in one piece. My head can take me to very dark places as well, but the more I move through the bad feelings successfully the better I think my prospects for healing are.

[scaryaries in reply to JAYnLA]

not yet & the only reason i go all the way to self harm is because i become numb & impulsive & it’s all i can think of. i haven’t in a day or two but it’s hard when that’s what’s crowding your head.

[JAYnLA in reply to scaryaries]

I understand and thanks for opening up.

[Believeinyourself123 in reply to scaryaries]

I get very impulsive during these times as well. Not good for me. I struggle daily with self harm. I'm here for you. I hope your night gets brighter.

[Coralrose5 in reply to JAYnLA]

I also experience

More sadness once the sun goes down. ugh

[Heartbrokenagain]

I feel the same way. My days are great because im busy. Its the night rime that bothers me. Theres no one to talk to and my mind is constantly going. Im no expert but if im not sleepy instead of laying there thinking i do crosswords, jigsaw puzzles, i read anything to keep myself from thinking. Until i i am sleepy and know that i will fall asleep. Its not a cure all but it really helps to keep my mind busy. Ive never cut myself although im a big wuss. But i have tortured myself by reliving all the bad moments in my life. Not a good thing. Keep your head up. Eventually thi gs will get better.

[Michael8072]

It's the same for me. Sometimes I feel it during the day but every evening is worse for me. That's when the thoughts really take over. Your not alone feeling this way. I hope you find something that helps you in the evenings.