Good days/Bad days

[LucyKe]

After patiently waiting to finally get some relief & feel better, I had a awesome day yesterday (Tuesday) only to wake up all over the place in tears this morning. I give up!

[Dolphin80]

Don’t give up!!! All will be ok!! See your doc and discuss this. Hang in there.

[Destinyweathers]

What's the matter Love?

[Justbreathe3]

I know exactly how you feel. The constant roller coaster ride can be exhausting. I have been off work for 2 months now and will be going back in 2 weeks. I am excited and terrified at the same time. Never give up. Cherish the good times and try to learn from the bad times. Every day is a new day. Even though it is very hard to do try and stay positive. You are not alone. Mornings are my worst time but I try and focus on the things that I am great full for. It will get better.

[Runningfargal]

Hang in there! I was told more than once that recovery, healing is never linear. It’s an up and down rollercoaster. Hang in there, remember how good Tuesday felt, journal it, reread it. More good days will come it’s just a matter of waiting out the storm. I totally understand, I’m there, been there and back again. You can do this, keep pushing forward and just stay put when you need too and ride it out. Everyone here will be with you while you do.

[Loki1018]

Me too Luckyke I was doing great yesterday (Tuesday ) as well until about 3ish when my anxiety set in and depression by the time I got home and out the shower which I had to make a quick one because even at times showering has thrown me into panic attacks and dressed I was crying 😢 over what you may ask about just feeling dreadful and also missing my cat and mom made me even more sad 😔 and I’m still going through it as we speak the anxiety and I just want to walk out of work right now as we speak/post.

[LucyKe in reply to Loki1018]

I had my very first panic attack in the shower 2013 I was TERRIFIED...where is your mother & cat? Are you able to visit them? I relocated about 9 months ago so on top of this depression & anxiety I’m dealing with homesickness I miss everybody badly so I understand...I’ve had to walk outta school a number of times so also understand that. It’s amazing how something invisible have so much control

[Loki1018 in reply to LucyKe]

Likewise my most severe panic attack also happened in the shower but I was aware of it but even with medical background and knowledge I couldn’t control it. My bf came to the rescue and had to get me out and get me my meds.

My mom and cat are just a 10 min drive I recently moved back in with mom and took my cat because this past January I ended my 6 year relationship I was fed up but I did it in a haste while on a very manic episode.

I been at my old apartment where I was living with my bf we are working on reconciling the relationship so by the time I got there he just held me and I took my meds until I past out. When I’m anxious my short term memory is shot and to add to that my anxiety meds also contribute to that and as I think about it now I can’t even remember if I took my mood stabilizer meds last night the second half of the dose 😔🤦🏻‍♀️ and with this not knowing and not having the right dosage I tend to rapid cycle and that’s also no fun.

I been diagnosed with bipolar depression and anxiety.

Btw way I only been at the apartment for 3 days and today I’m going back to my mom’s but at the same time I want to be there I too want to be at my apartment. I’m in between where I belong and not belong. I just feel lost I guess is what it comes down too. Both places are considered my safe place as long as I’m in comfy clothes and in bed but Loki (my cat and ESA) is at my mom’s along with his brother Logan.

[LucyKe in reply to Loki1018]

Oh dear that’s definitely a lot, Prayers up to you

[LucyKe]

Thanks everybody I just pray for us all

[Kat63]

I know it’s hard when you get a good day, you think the bad feelings are finally gone...and then they come back. One thing that helps me is to remind myself that the last time I was in a bad state of mind, it didn’t last forever. Sooner or later it does go away.

If you think you might need meds or therapy, don’t feel bad about doing those things for yourself. If you need it, you need it.

[Laniben]

This happens to me too and I don’t know how to deal with it, I had a good morning today then it hit me after lunch. The freedom you feel without it for a few hours is great then ..,,bam! Its horrible, I totally understand where you’re coming from as do most on here, it kind of knocks your whole confidence building doesn’t it x