Depression getting the best of me

[Bonari45]

I've struggled my whole life with feeling not good enough and fearing that everyone would leave. I have a great life an amazing boyfriend, a beautiful step daughter, happy puppies. But I'm constantly thinking the worst. Im always overthinking everything and fear that my boyfriend is going to up and leave. I have these crazy break downs and God bless him for trying to keep me calm but I know its wearing on him too. This past year I've had two miscarriages and two consecutive chemical pregnancies. I feel like a waste and I just dont know how to stop these bad thoughts and over thinking

[brokenlight]

You have been through a lot... please try to be gentle with yourself.

I can relate to words so much.

The feelings of worthlessness/not being good enough & being petrified that everyone will leave are some of the cruelest things we can feel.

I’m glad we share this space.

[JkBrauer]

How lovely to have such a supporting family. Do you have any girlfriends or sisters, an aunt or mom who might be close to you? Your boyfriend sounds like a wonderful man, sometimes though, only another woman can understand where you might be coming from. They can help you to connect the dots and help your boyfriend understand a little more clearly what the problem might be. Have you tried seeking out any type of counseling? You can go to a local pastor and seek his advice and he can help you and maybe even help you find a good group therapy. remember, you are not fighting this battle alone! Your family loves you, we are here too, to help support and encourage you in any way we can. Do you like to read or listen to the radio/ music...? Do you have any hobbies or activities you like to do? Sometimes getting out and exercising helps clear the mind too. Hang in there you are getting off to a good start! I always find that prayer is a very helpful tool also!