Anhedonia

[rayana]

I spend a lot of my time thinking about how I don’t look forward to anything. I see others around who feel excited about seeing friends, leaving home, going drinking, and it feels like I am so far away from ever feeling that way. I’ve had depression for almost 7 years now, and it’s beginning to feel like my identity. I miss looking forward to leaving bed.

I also feel upset because I am a Psychology PhD student, so people keep expecting me to know how to help myself.

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Well join the club...what others do doesn't excited me..im happy for them..I like doing what I want to do..so..is there anything you like doing that excites you?..im not a psychologist but am learning and trying to better myself from whatever works for me..

[Pieces99]

Hi, Rayana. Being 7 years and still fighting, hats off to you. I have had 2 years of depression and anxiety. When I share with my friends or family any relating problem they make me understand to stop being a victim of my condition. Honestly, it's frustrating because it's like a war within us. No person would ever want to have depression or anxiety. Two years and I feel like its a part of me that I can't let go cuz we live with it every second emotionally. Sometimes I think what was or is my true identity. But then I console myself with the these lines " identity is always a way of exploring and discovering ourselves ". And yeah I know people expect so much around you that if you keep fulfilling their expectations, you might loose yourself.

Take care. Fighting!!!

[RheaBird]

Hi Rayana

I'm learning to embrace my introversion and enjoy little things in life...but it's taken me awhile. Re knowing what to do because you study psychology, I can only say I prefer counselors and therapists who know that depression and anxiety are real! Wounded healers can be the best. Hugs. Glad you are sharing, since anhedonia sneaks up sometimes and can feel like a gray cloud that won't stop following me. Take care.