What is happening,why am I like this

[Afaaf]

I mean I have a mom,siblings and moved to new house with my mum and I have a new room to myself which I didn’t have before,I went to uni,have food,have clothes but wait a minute,why am I complaining and think that am undeserving,worthless,ungrateful,ugly,boring,socially awkward,because of my mental state I dropped a course I loved,isolate myself in my room cuz am afraid of people even in my own house,binging on food as it is my comfort I guess to fill the void,am tired am tired and I don’t am strong enough for theses trials God bestows on me,I feel like life has been sucked from me,am just left with a body that desperately needs rescue cuz am not present for me

[Lazy_dog_lover]

I have totally been there. Research "shame". Your pain is your pain and cannot be compared to others who have more or less. Has something changed that triggered this all? What else do you physically do to remove stress?

[Afaaf in reply to Lazy_dog_lover]

I mean I don’t do anything to remove it,heard of the famous I don’t feel like it or want it even though my mind says otherwise,a lot changed since last year and am stuck am stuck to even try bcoz am afraid of coming back to the same place,I been trying the whole of last year but does it get better?anyways thanks for the reply,I appreciate it❤️

[Lazy_dog_lover in reply to Afaaf]

It can always get better. You have to go through it to get out of it.

[froggymom88]

First, sending you a big hug! Slow down. God is not sending you trials to test your strength. Trials are a part of life. They come and go. As we experience adversity, we learn from them and can become better people. You are very hard on yourself. I know God loves you and has created you for good things. Do you have a good friend or even one family member to talk to about these feelings?