I just need to get away

[lenny_thecat]

I live with my Brother and his wife. We live in our family apartment. I do not feel welcome in my own home. I am not respected nor cared about .it’s been giving me anxiety with everything else in my life. There’s always negative energy and tension in the air. I do not feel like I have a safe place to go. I wish I could leave but I can not. Moving out is to expensive atm. I feel like an object that takes up space, that they would be happy to get rid of. I have tired to make a better relationship but it never last long. It has really been It’s been a long two years but more recently it has been affecting me more that usual low self esteem, low confidence, can’t seem to make a proper decision. I need help in getting through this until I am able to actually get away from people like this. I just need to get away

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I understand. My husband and child and me live with his mom now. And his friend has been staying there for weeks now too. It's been a year and a half. We can't move either. I stick to my own room since it seems like I'm just in the way too. It does destroy your self esteem especially since I am middle aged. I am miserable but I just keep working and doing my own thing. Not really any advice except to look toward the future, save money and have a plan to escape. Hang in there.

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Helping your low self esteem and earning respect can both be helped by the same thing, I think. What if you helped more with the daily work of keeping an apartment? Watching what your brother and sister-in-law do, are there some things you can do, too? Depression takes my motivation away, then I sabotage myself by telling myself that I am going to "take over" doing the dishes, forever, instead of occasionally doing the dishes to help out more. My therapist pointed that out to me. When I focus on "forever", I get overwhelmed, but if I think about maybe doing the dishes one or two days a week, "if I feel like it", I am much more likely to do it.