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[IloveMary]

I was having a good week I was getting back to my old self and taking care of my baby he is 8 months today and when I was driving my niece to her friends house and on my way home I start it to have a panic attack or anxiety I don't know what is was but it was bad and I am glad that my friend had my baby back at the house and when I got home I ask her if she could just stay with me for a little bit or can you take him home and she told me that she was going to take him home and she was going to ask her 21 year old to take care of him over night and she told me that if I want it to go to the hospital she would take me and would stay with me but I don't think I need to go right now but if it comes back I will go I just want to make sure that my baby will be safe and taking care of and I told her that I will pay you for all your help but she said don't be silly I would do anything for you and your baby because I know how much you love him and would do anything for him my friend told me that I did the same thing for her I took care of her baby's and now there are 21 and 24....I just feel so bad and I don't know what happen it just was so fast it came on out of no were....well I am you all are doing good....

[LaPetiteGen]

Oh love, I'm sorry you are experiencing panic attacks- they can be very scary. Thank goodness you have such a good friend that can help out with taking care of your baby. Please don't feel bad about having to rely on someone else- it's clear they care for you both and worrying over that only adds additional stress in your life. I would encourage you to see a doctor and/or therapist to try to get to the root of these anxiety issues so that you can learn to identify them, get ahead of them and maybe get them completely under control. Being healthy and taking care of yourself will be the best thing in the long-run for you and your baby. Praying you find answers.

[IloveMary in reply to LaPetiteGen]

I go see a a Doctor and a therapist and they are the ones I think is making me feel this way they keep telling me that I should go in the hospital but my Friend said that is not what I need because the last time they did that to me I was on so many pills that all I did was sleep I didn't want to eat and I didn't want to go out of the house so I couldn't even go to work I wish I could find new ones but I can't I don't know how I did it before...Well I better go before I just keep talking I hope you have a good day and thank you for caring...