60 yr old nz woman here again

[cookbrea]

would like anyone to give advice to me but please do not be to critical of me, for many years I was on a benefit and got charged with fraud as was in a relationship so i should not of been on a benefit at all, though most people who new me new of this information but no one told on me though many could of, I have been blessed in my life, but like I have said in another post, I constantly look to get revenge on people and I have destroyed lives and faith and confidence in others, gossiped about them my children spread rumors, but still can not abide anyone that does anything at all to me I can not over look all they do yet expect everyone to overlook and be ok with all I have done, what I want to know is after reading this post and my other post do any of you on this site, think I am mentally ill or is it just a flaw in my personality, I do suffer depression and anxiety, as a rule do not hear voices except on occasion from my fish tank and have heard the odd words when no one is around I put this down to visiting spirits would like to mention i do not hear the voices on a regular bases would welcome any advice thank you

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Sounds to me like you need professional help and a proper diagnosis as to what the problem is, hope you get sorted soon, have a great day

[dore13]

mental illness is not an excuse to act badly. No matter what you have done, you have to take responsibility for the wrongs you have done. No advice any person gives will help, the only way you will change is when you decide too. Seek professional help, because only hurting people hurt people.