One day

[Stephanie89]

One day I was just living life the happiest person with my kids I mean my life wasn’t perfect but I was happy I had goals and dreams I could go places without feeling fear I could work any job without a doubt I could do everyday activities like laundary clean the house take shower without feeling so drained I could go on 4 hrs of sleep and felt like I slept 8

Then one day it all changed I felt a lump in my throat my body would hurt me all over I could feel the chest pain the heart racing the fear of impending doom a feeling that’s so hard to describe a feeling I never want to feel a feeling no one understands where u can go from day day feeing on top of the world to the next feeling like u hit rock bottom why must my body torture me like this why must I feel like I have some type of disease but knowing deep down I don’t why must everyday task feel like it takes all ur energy why must my body feel weak and make it impossible to sleep with my anxious heart beating out my chest

All I want is my life back me back I want to forget this part of me ever existed and remember what it’s like to be a better me not the old me but a stronger me because I will even as bad as It got for me I didn’t give up i kept fighting and that make me a stronger me..

***sorry for the long post i just needed to let this out

[Hidden]

Hi Stephanie when you referred to a lump in your throat was it a sign of overwhelming emotional pain or was it physical lump? If you have not had your thyroid tested recently may be you should have it checked. The exhaustion may not be totally related to depression.

[Stephanie89 in reply to Hidden]

No it’s just how I get when I get my anxiety or over whelmed but i had my thyroid checked out and said it’s fine

[Hidden in reply to Stephanie89]

Are you on an older drug such as lithium or on a newer drug? You are getting extremes of mood - happy and energetic one day and down the next. Have you had

other hormone tests for oestrogen and progesterone levels? Have you any other problems with heavy periods, pain or PMT?Do you find you get ratty before a period but afterwards you feel better. Think the medical profession have forgotten that depression and anxiety in women may not be the same as for men. Do you have a well woman check at your practice ha! Joke!

[Stephanie89 in reply to Hidden]

No i only tried lexapro and Zoloft and hydrozine but I didn’t like them made me worse so I tried controlling my anxiety myself it hasn’t been easy at all I have my good months and then I go downhill again

I actually wanted to do those testing because before my period i sometimes don’t feel well feel weak and extremely tired when I’m on it so I’m going to talk to my doctor about that definitely but it seems like every doctor I try to says everything I feel is my anxiwttv

[Hidden in reply to Stephanie89]

You have answered your question - the drugs did not suit you and you have tried unsuccessfully to control your mood. If your periods are affected at the moment this may be part of your problem- I would go to your nurse, explain you think you might have some problem with your general health, particularly your menstrual cycle and ask him or her for blood tests for anaemia vitamin levels including B12 and the B and C vitamin levels and D. I think you should be referred to a psychiatrist for a change in prescription. If you have a group of doctors may be you can find one in your practice who is more sympathetic. It is is uncomfortable when you feel you have to manage your condition on your own.

[Stephanie89 in reply to Hidden]

Next Friday I’m definitely going to have the dr check me out for everything to make sure everything is ok with me so I can be 100% it’s my anxiety

[Hidden in reply to Stephanie89]

Can you get a print out of your results so you can know if your vitamin levels are low but not optimal? Phytoestrogen health supplements helped me through the menopause with various symptoms. The MSN article recommends them too.

The lady was put on to antidepressants but they did not solve the problem!.

[Hidden in reply to Stephanie89]

PS Was thinking about your problem and in 1997 I felt really awful and was referred to a psychiatrist who gave me a course of seuroxat. I felt so ill after one tablet, I could not take any more. At that time the doctor did some blood tests. he told me to go back to my Gp with the results. When I eventually looked at them I saw my blood sugar was 15. It was some time later I changed practice and had to be screened for certain tests.

It was then I was told I had type 2 diabetes. I have not needed to take anything for anxiety and depression but everyone is different, so if you have not had a test for diabetes it might be worth having. Since my blood sugar is better and I've been on a special diet for food allergens, I feel better than 20 years ago. I've lost some weight about two and a half stone, but still need to lose some more!

[Traveller85]

I’m sorry you have panic attacks, I’ve had them before, must be really terrible for you. What have you tried? Anything help?

[Stephanie89 in reply to Traveller85]

I tried different medicines but didn’t work for me

[SuZQ154]

So sorry you are feeling anxiety. Being honest and open is often the first step to getting better. Please keep posting! Have you considered a new counselor? Or have you read "Anxiety Cure" by Archibald Hart? You might want to check it out. bit.ly/2etHIpo This book gave me guidance I had not heard before and it worked. Blessings and prayers to you today!

[Stephanie89 in reply to SuZQ154]

I go to my counselor or therapist next week for monthly visits

[SuZQ154 in reply to Stephanie89]

Sounds good. Let us know how your session goes!

[Hidden]

HI Stephanie - another thought on your ill health - do you think it is the menopause? Oestrogen dips cause all those symptoms of emotion and depression and inability to tackle every day tasks. Saw an article the other day on Microsoft about some one who been to every specialist under the sun and it was eventually diagnosed the lady was going through the menopause. I often think GPs don't realise the changing symptoms of the menopausal depression and fatigue hopelessness. May be you should ask for a referral to a gynaecologist, or go to a well woman clinic . Panic attacks can be linked to your thyroid going over active - you need a six monthly check up on tests with a print out.

[Hidden]

Hi Stephanie -\I had an early menopause with mental health symptoms in my 30/s. May be you might find this article ticks a few boxes. msn.com/en-gb/health/mindan....

The agony of midlife brain fog. x

[Stephanie89 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you for this

I been getting really bad what I think is hot flashes but I just turned 29 last month I don’t think it could be early menopause but I feel like a rush of hotness even when it is cold it bothers me and starts to freak me it and my hands get clamy and sweaty 😭

[Hidden in reply to Stephanie89]

Heh Stephanie - this could be due to your medication with a side effect, your thyroid, or a food intolerance. I had hot flushes from tannins in tea coffee and chocolate. So as I was drinking tea and my cups were stained, I thought what was happening to my stomach and intestines and removed tea altogether. Tannins if made from roasted tea leaves, and beans are carbon foods. It is like smoking. I drink weak Ribena and coffee powder very weak I small teaspoon every now and again and certain brands of hot chocolate which do not give me a hot flush. Don't know if it is of interest but have been looking at alternative methods of helping anxiety and have seen several methods of helping the problem. If you are in the uk , themicrocurrentsite.co.uk shows a new small machine which relays Microcurrent through cranial electrotherapy which looks interesting.

You can rent to buy this product. If you are in the US cesultra.com does a portable machine. Sure there are other - eg. Allevia health.com technology.

An article "Rise of cranial electrotherapy" in Psychiatric times - psychiatrictimes.com

might be of interest. There is also information concerning PMT with muscular weakness being linked to diabetes. I had this for years - I had type 2 diabetes diagnosed much later on in life. These markers were not known about years ago.

[Humankind-BE_BOTH]

With counseling and perhaps medication you can recover a sense of normalcy!

Give yourself credit for just being alive! It's not all rainbows and ponies but you are fighting through it!

[Stephanie89 in reply to Humankind-BE_BOTH]

Thank you yes life can be difficult but I’m trying to get through it each and everyday

[cortisolqueen]

Bless your heart! That sounds exactly like what happened with me. I was the happiest person in the world. I actually felt guilty because I always felt great. Then one night I woke up with a terrible case of vertigo. I didn't know what was happening and really thought I was dying. I went to the ER and that started my 4 year long battle with Panic and anxiety. I worry 24/7 about when the next attack might happen. I feel like I am going crazy. No one could ever begin to understand what this is like unless they have suffered themselves.

[Stephanie89 in reply to cortisolqueen]

I’m sorry ur struggling with this too yes I get vertigo as well and it’s so horrible the dr said it’s more horrible because of my anxiety

Me to i was always happy making everyone smile everyone loved to be around me I would make everyone love and I loved my life then one day my life turned upside down I’m hoping one day I will get my life back just like I woke up one day with all this anxiety u are not alone I know exactly what u are going through ❤️

[cortisolqueen in reply to Stephanie89]

I pray we both wake up one morning and we are back to our old selves. I would not wish this on anyone. We have to be strong women to keep getting up every morning and keep fighting on. Prayers to you my friend.

[Stephanie89 in reply to cortisolqueen]

Thank you so much and prayers to u too yes we are fighters to keep going each and everyday this is a horrible illness and it wouldn’t wish it on anyone keep the hope and faith