It's me again. No surprise..
I'm just on here to rant
Not talking to anyone in particular because I've been on here alot this last month or so. I feel like a burden actually. I have a new worry everyday. It's always about my body. I observe my skin, a lot.
I get weird pains and think it's the end. I feel like I'm destined to die soon. And to leave my kids with no mother. Because of an illness that spread over my whole body.
I want to change my way of thinking. But my mind is stuck in a loop. A constant. Dead. Loop. I am so tired of having constant negativity in my mind to the point I have an attack because I might have a SIMPLE BRUISE on my body!
I have tried my anxiety meds, my depression meds, I'm on a mood stabilizer but this anxiety? Oh this anxiety is horrible. It's always going to be stuck to the bottom of my shoe. I may have a good day here and there but I have the worst anxiety, ever. I'm sure of it. Its not fair. Why me? Why cant I be worry free?! why!!!!!!!!!!!!!!