Manic episode

[whirlybird5]

The other day I felt like I was going insane - I went into a depressive fit and started playing guitar to cope till it faded. This didn't work and I ended up laying on the floor starting at the ceiling just talking to myself, feeling like my brain had been punched. I wanted it to end so badly. I didn't act upon anything but the idea of hurting myself definitely floated through my thoughts.

Later that night, I picked myself up and met up with some friends, and ended up feeling extraordinarily happy - which was great, except for the fact that as soon as I was alone I fell back into the pit so-to-speak. This is a very confusingn, lonely time in my life and quite lost both in my tragectory and my thoughts.

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Sounds like your brain is used in being in constant stimulation. The moment you are in an environment of silence your mind begins to turn in the opposite direction it is used to on a regular basis.

Those who have a social type of life may face challenges. Unlike loners as myself face the opposite of what you go through.

Each person’s mind is more stable to that individual’s specification of recognition to what they do on a regular basis.

When you are in a state of feeling uncomfortable find ways in which you can stabilize and bring yourself to a state of comfort.

One thing I would recommend is when alone think of the times you were out with your friends. Hold on to those moments or even write them down in a notebook as a reminder of such happy moments.

Use those notes as a defensive mechanism again the negative thoughts you are experiencing while alone.

Positivity has and always will over come negativity. 😊