Help

[Gigi35]

I just recently had everything a person should want. A serious relationship, love but I just wasn’t happy so we broke up. I make one mistake with someone else and my whole life is ruined. No one will want to be with me, I won’t be able to have kids and I’m afraid to even have interactions with someone else. I just feel like everything got ruined in one night. One mistake

[Byelka]

I know it’s hard not to but try not to go down the road of assumptions. One mistake doesn’t dictate your life. Feel free to message me if you want to talk more privately about the details but why would this one nigh mean you can’t have children, cause no one to want to be with you?

[Hidden]

hi gigi,what your going throuis what happens to every oneonce a relation ship breaks down.youve been so used to being with someone,then its all over.its not the end of the world,althou it might seem so,allow yourself to cry,we all do that sometimes even old codgers like me 75.and time to get over it.then move on in life.its all out their for you

and with somone called gigi who can go wrong,

[softwaremom00]

One mistake should not ruin your whole life. If you caught a disease then there are a lot of conventional medical treatments that can help as well as nontraditional medical treatments. Your immune system is an amazing thing if well taken care of. Once again I will encourage you to start Mindfulness meditation.. my medication teacher talks about approaching things with a beginner mind. "We tend to think about what is here in the present, we assume we "know" all about it. To practice beginners mind means to allow ourselves to experience the world in each moment as if we were meeting it for the first time." (from my class notes)

You do not know the future. Feel free to message me. You have a bright future ahead of you.

If you want to do some research on your own.. I love to use pubmed to look for different articles.. (It is free)

We are all here for you. You will love again and be loved.

Tons of hugs.

Softwaremom

[Fortynfedup]

You said it "you just weren't happy" just because you have everything you feel others would want, doesn't mean that the relationship was right for you. Are you in love with this person? Or settling because you cared deeply about them. Think carefully about what you want and need from a partner, were you getting this from that person. Why do you think no-one would want you? Two people did! Why won't you be able to have children?

Take some time and concentrate on you, break ups are painful but time does heal x

[Hidden]

Invisible

Im invisible

No one notices me

Call me the phantom

But I’m really more like the air no ones noticing

(That they breathe)

Im invisible

Though feel me in your head

You hold me ransom

Unnoticed following me until I’m finally (buried’n dead)

Im invisible

None notice my frown

I take all these pills

Some help me sleep while others the pain’ll (Barely numb).

Im in visible, don’t you see (I’m in visible)

Im in-vis-able

Un-seen-bro-ken-so-ul

No neck in a brace

Unnoticed as if in a deep black hole (with no voice)

Im in visible, don’t you see (I’m in visible)

[Hidden]

My Daily Fight (w/mental health exacerbated depression, ptsd,)

Kicking Me While I’m Down

Toxic workplace bullying,

exacerbated my mental health,

breaking me down to my knees.

I fought while too ill,

Co-workers and big money company,

Kicking me while I’m down.

my human rights,

my dignity and my guts they made me spill,

And the perps think it’s funny

While I hurt from the tip of my toes, aching in my heart into my cracked up crown.

I’m now at the mercy,

of the conglomerate,

“Big foreign company workplace insurer, BC”, as they watch me bleed.

Depression and dread,

are the bars and the black painted windows, that keep any light from coming in,

and me locked up inside.

Oppression, discrimination,

and hatred blind me,

as I wait in hopelessness for release.

Desire for love and understanding,

while bound by anxiety,

flood in on panics tide.

Mercy, grace and joy hiding in a corner,

They all forsake me,

as I wait for death,

sobbing in grief,

(from all our pain and losses),

and fighting,

for even a little bit,

of peace.

For the last of my tears over all of this mess,

of hatred, BULLYING, and misunderstanding, I’ve cried.

[Hidden]

My friend her endearing nick name for me made me fall in love with her more deeply. One mistake and it was all over for us as well. I miss her so much that with all the other added losses I’ve had, well I just can barely bare the pain. I thought she loved me deeply. She even told me so. I gave her the nick name GG as well. How I miss my GiGi and her calling my name-a name she gave me “Polito”.

I understand how you must feel. I feel the same. Without my gg, I feel lost in this deep dark hole of depression.

Hugs 🤗 💜

Polito