I'm a 65 year old woman suffering from on/off crippling anxiety and severe depression.
I am fighting for my life !! Furthermore, I'm sharing a house with my 95 year old mother, who has pretty much been a life long support & now due to her discomfort
is giving up on life. I want to die too but would never self-inflict harm. I've become resistant to medicine so now started nuero star treatments (transcraniel magnetic stimulation), which release nuerotransmitters. I hope it works ! Results are mixed.
Also due to longterm faulty/genetic brain chemisrty and lifetime psycho-social problems,
my money has been spent on psychiatrists, psychologists, and basic life expenses
My fianances are very low. I receive Social Security disablity and once mom dies I woun't be able to afford the taxes on her home. (which is a very modest one).
I need to work part time to augment my finances, and maybe we can rent out a room. I'm an educated person, masters in clinical social social work but, my mental and physical limitations have made me unable to work in the field for many years. I need inspiration to continue to go on. I am am compassionate to others ! I have no
family support. My brother is violent, emotionally abusive and attemped to murder me in front of 2 elementary school kids in the familiy 8 years ago. In August of 2018 he assaulted me in front of our mother. If anyone can relate to some of this, perhaps we can cheer each other on, be supportive, etc. and restore positive life experiences. Thank you.
P.S. I have a weekly support group, and a psychologist I see on occasion. I've had 30 years of therapy, was trained as a cognitive behavioral therapist, have done well during parts of my life, but feel extremely vulnerable and paralized. And my spirtuality waffles; am trying to reconnect with faith.