Looking for mutual support with mature, intellegent person.

[dogginess]

I'm a 65 year old woman suffering from on/off crippling anxiety and severe depression.

I am fighting for my life !! Furthermore, I'm sharing a house with my 95 year old mother, who has pretty much been a life long support & now due to her discomfort

is giving up on life. I want to die too but would never self-inflict harm. I've become resistant to medicine so now started nuero star treatments (transcraniel magnetic stimulation), which release nuerotransmitters. I hope it works ! Results are mixed.

Also due to longterm faulty/genetic brain chemisrty and lifetime psycho-social problems,

my money has been spent on psychiatrists, psychologists, and basic life expenses

My fianances are very low. I receive Social Security disablity and once mom dies I woun't be able to afford the taxes on her home. (which is a very modest one).

I need to work part time to augment my finances, and maybe we can rent out a room. I'm an educated person, masters in clinical social social work but, my mental and physical limitations have made me unable to work in the field for many years. I need inspiration to continue to go on. I am am compassionate to others ! I have no

family support. My brother is violent, emotionally abusive and attemped to murder me in front of 2 elementary school kids in the familiy 8 years ago. In August of 2018 he assaulted me in front of our mother. If anyone can relate to some of this, perhaps we can cheer each other on, be supportive, etc. and restore positive life experiences. Thank you.

P.S. I have a weekly support group, and a psychologist I see on occasion. I've had 30 years of therapy, was trained as a cognitive behavioral therapist, have done well during parts of my life, but feel extremely vulnerable and paralized. And my spirtuality waffles; am trying to reconnect with faith.

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I can relate to some of what you say..

[fauxartist]

welcome and glad you found this place, there are many many of us in your age group such as myself, but what makes us all work, all ages, and all backgrounds, and from around the world is we all suffer from this disease of anxiety, depression, etc. Your not alone and many of us understand, no judgement, and lots of us been there too.....I'm happy your here sharing....

[mydogs]

You are so kind and supportive to us who are on this site crying for help and advice and I would like to say thank you

[MT2018]

Hi! Sounds like you have alot on your plate, caring for your mom. I hear what you are saying re finances and the uncertainty of your future. I'd like to just encourage you by saying that I believe God hasn't forgotten you. He has a plan for you and He will provide for you. It's great that you have a support group! May I suggest finding a local church to get involved with also? It's my experience that there are people there to walk with you through so much of what you are dealing with! I'll bet you have alot to offer them, too!