Starting new year off wrong ?

[Yellowleaves]

I’m so sick of depression. It just seems like everything I do never works. It goes away I get hopeful and then it right back. Will we have this for life ? Instead of enjoying the new year I’m in the darkest space. I just feel so hopeless. I don’t want to deal with this anymore.

[art62grammie]

Depression is a dark tunnel. We can not even begin to see a glimmer of light. We have to search very hard to work our way out of there. There is light at the end of that tunnel. How do I know? I am 56 and Anorexia took me at 14. I sought treatment just 6 years ago. I have recently recovered. It will be a daily process for me to stay recovered. I had been in the tunnel so to speak prison for 40 years. I have found my way to the light. It is a very bright wonderful light now. I know exactly how you feel. Light is there. Look for it. Keep fighting. DO NOT LET DEPRESSION KEEP YOU IN A PRISON OR TUNNEL. IT IS A VERY LONELY PLACE. I LOVE YOU AND STAND UP TO YOUR DEPRESSION. YOU ARE IN CHARGE NOT IT. HAPPY NEW YEAR. MAKE 2019 A YEAR TO LET THE LIGHT SHINE.

[MMoth in reply to art62grammie]

How have you recovered?

[MMoth]

I get it. For me, it doesn’t go away entirely, even with meds. I remind myself that I have MANY more good days than bad. Read my bio.

[justanote]

Depression can be very debilitating, but there IS hope! I live with an anxiety-depression combo and get so frustrated when I am unable to control my thoughts, emotions and physical symptoms of both issues. I do take a low dosage of an anti-anxiety medication that seems to keep my serotonin level even. I have also met with an anxiety support group in the past and I'm currently part of an online Bible study that really helps me stay grounded. Journaling has been a big help to me at different times. I know it's not for everyone, but I am a "stuffer" and writing down my thoughts helps to get them out. Once I see them on paper, I can sort through them to determine what is real and what is not. If you are looking for someone to talk to, you might try contacting this counseling help line: 855-382-5433. I'm praying that you will find some answers and relief from your pain.