Deep depression

Going thru major holiday depression. Seems like no one really gets me. Holiday will be a third wheel, don't feel like driving 6hrs to North Carolina. Feel fat floated. I am struggling to focus and motivate myself.

[Stilltrying_]

Hi there, I know that you've been struggling for quite a while and holiday season can make everything worse as there are additional stresses like the one you described. Also there's so many expectations about how you should be feeling (happy?) when you're not and it can make you feel even worse, feeling that everyone else has the "perfect" life . Of course some people do have a good life and others not so good.

I hope you can get up the motivation to drive. You may feel a bit better when you get there. Best of luck. You're not alone.

[SuZQ154]

Sorry you are going through this. You sound like you are understanding yourself. That is good and the first step toward getting better. We understand, so please keep reaching out here. Have you ever read Leslie Vernick's "Lord, I Just Want to be Happy"? You might want to take a look at it. bit.ly/2HDmMId It gives practical, wise, and achievable suggestions on how to change our thinking and thus our behaviors and feelings. It helped me a ton! Hope this helps you and praying for you today.

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I don't believe in God anymore

[SuZQ154 in reply to Hidden]

Why do you say you do not believe in God "anymore"? Did something happen??

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Years of mainly disappointment, povertystruggle and no joy. Felt like I was talking to wall. Why so much pain lonelinessif there is a god