Unstoppable Crying

[mags78]

Im Maggie. I suffer from bad anxiety and depressive episodes as a result all my life. On and off. Yesterday i just cried invontrollably most of the day. I didnt even know why. Tears were just flowing. Just overwhelming sadness and hopelessness. Im on medication but it doesnt always protect me. Today im just sad and anxious. I feel im going mad though. Love to all of you xxx Maggie

[Bird-67]

Hi Maggie,

So sorry you are having a bad time.

Have you been on your medication long? as they do take a while to start working properly.

You have come to the right forum as we all understand what you are going through.

If you keep feeling how you are now then maybe your medication needs adjusting.

You can always private message me if you want to talk one to one.

Good luck and hope you feel better soon ❤️

[mags78 in reply to Bird-67]

Thank you for your response. I have been on Prozac for 10 years on and off. It worked well initially, i had a few years anxiety/depression free. Recently though, in the last 12 months i feel as if it is losing its effectivness. My doctor left me on the same dose but added Buspar to eliminate anxiety which is usually the cause of me depressive episodes. It has only been 2 days on new meds so not sure if i can see any difference yet. My biggest problem is that i am so pessimistic. I focus on the negative, tell myself all will go wrong etc. i have so much to live for, lovely child and husband and i feel guilty feeling like this because... why?? It is my unbalanced brain and insecurities from childhood i guess. I had some long periods of life full of happiness. And then something will hurt me and im straightaway imagining im dying. How irrational but i cant help it. In also scared of suicide. I was never suicidal but if i see someone famous on TV who unexpectedly took their life, i fear that maybe it will happen to me one day. I have been very patient so far. Force myself to go to work, cook,look after family. On the outside i may look normal (except for losing weight due to lack of appetite) but inside my head i cry and bottle up my fears. I hope it will pass. I have been there before and it passed. I am 40 and menopause is still ahead of me. All the hormonal changes etc. How will i cope? Anyway, sending love to both of you who responded. Nice to have someone who understands. Thsnk you 🌷

[Bird-67 in reply to mags78]

Oh it sounds like the Prozac has stopped working.

I have had to change medication a few times over the years as they just stop working after so long.

I am on Sertraline but it doesn’t help my anxiety, if anything it makes it worse so am now seeing a Psychiatrist and may have to change again.

I also suffer with OCD and have also had the same thoughts about being worried I might commit suicide.

Reading your reply sounds like it could be me who wrote it.

Please stay in touch as would love to hear how you get on xx

[Savingstar]

Hi maggie

glad you came here I have these days too i find the best way is to roll with the tears as this often releases the pent up emotions we feel. the most important thing to remember is you are not going mad and this is just a blip and you will come through the other side xx

[mags78 in reply to Savingstar]

Thank you for your response. Gives me hope. Supporting each other is so important 🌷

[Ichthymom]

Sorry you had a rough day Maggie! Do you have a therapist or support from family? You have control over this, I know you can get through it!