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[Igor4253]

i made it to Thursday..i am a very open person..if you ask me something i tell you..that is just how i am

when i tell my family i have suicidal thoughts ..real ones..they shrug it off and say go see a doctor..after so many years of this i dont talk to them about what i am feeling inside..

im planning on making a doctors appointment ...but i am terrible at putting certain things off so we will see.thanks for the people that are helping me here..

[Iloveart7]

Glad you are planning on getting help. Suicidal thoughts can be scary to deal with alone. I recently had to do inpatient stay and so now my husband knows and we made a safety plan w/ my counselor. Which makes me feel safer now. Maybe something like that would help you? You can PM me if you ever need to talk

[Jane_Doe2018]

Hi Igor! I can relate, my parents weren't too caring about it. I think it was because it was embarassing for them since my mother was one of the few therapists in our small town. Either way, I recently got hooked up with a good doctor, therapist, psychiatrist, and some support groups that have really helped. Similar to Iloveart, I recently had to do an inpatient stay because I was having suicidal thoughts and was planning on acting. In your own time, look in to different options that might be right for you. I also agree in that I'm glad you are planning on getting help. My therapist told me that there is a thin line between thoughts and actions, so get help when the thoughts come. Anyways, I hope you have a great day- and congrats on making it to Thursday! Each day counts

[Celtic27]

Hi igor I hope going to the doctor gets you the help you need! Regarding your suicidal thoughts if your in the UK try the samaritans or breathing space your worth saving from suicide its a matter of getting your inner self to take on board any help you can get be it from a doctor or phycologist I wish you all the best david

[aaronm]

Hey Igor! I understand! I can't talk to my parents either. Our relationship is strained. You can message me anytime.

[ge99]

Hi sometimes when you talk about things which are very painful some people get scared, they dont mean to push you away its just they dont know what to do. Believe that they do want you to feel better and sometimes you have to go it alone to find the answers deep down in your own soul. Find someone to talk to who will just listen, tell them they dont have to find solutions for you... just listen. I hope you find that person. Best wishes x

[SuZQ154]

Glad you are here. Your feelings are real. We want people close to us to love us through them, and sometimes they are so caught up in their own lives or don't know how to respond. Our fears, anxieties, and depression need to be worked through. Sometimes that takes going to a counselor and support groups, and I am learning it's requiring me to develop a new identity, one that is healthier and does not include old thinking, friends, and habits. Change is hard and requires me to look deep. Working with a Christian counselor has really helped. Hope you can find help today and please keep posting.