Anxious and depressed at the same time, a gambit of emotions felt all at once. Yet I feel nothing at all.

[RisingLotus]

I go from feeling so anxious that all I want to do is flip out. My body reacts to my mind and my thoughts, in a way that I feel as if I can’t control myself. I get nauseous and feel so all over the place. Then at the drop of a dime, I’ll begin to cry and feel numb. Like I want to self harm so I can feel something, anything. Sometimes that makes me feel like I want to hurt myself, so I don’t have to deal with any of this anymore.

[BonnieSue]

If you hurt yourself you may still have to deal with your depression and anxiety...have you thought about that? You definitely need to see a doctor for medication for your anxiety & depression, are you on any? If not, have you been to the ER or UK equivalent? If you're suicidal, it's time to call someone, in the US it could be 1.800.273.8255 or a Christian hotline at 1.800.982.8032. They are open 24/7. In the UK: [phone] (local rate) or [phone] (UK minicom) OR Email helpline: [e-mail]. Again, these all are available 24/7.

Getting medication is the 1st step to feeling better but it takes time. Sometimes several weeks. But you could start feeling better sooner. Do you feel alone? Like no one cares? These are 2 of the Big Lies that depression & anxiety tell everyone. Do NOT believe the Lies. We are here for you, and possibly friends or family may be too, if they knew exactly how badly you're feeling. Have you told anyone beside us here at HealthUnlocked? People can't support you if they don't understand how awful you feel.

I know much of what you're feeling...been there...yes, your body reacts to your mind and your thoughts at this stage of depression & anxiety. You cry and feel numb. It stinks, doesn't it? But you CAN get better and don't have to feel this way. Really! Talk to me, to someone else here...you'll find we've been through this and come out of it to happiness again...you can, too! Take care of you! Do what works, ok? That means NOT hurting yourself but HEALING yourself. Love yourself, ok? We'll help you.

[hopeful0907]

Depression is so cruel but there is hope for you. If you harm yourself the pain only grows along with the numbness. However, your body is crying out for someone to understand and be there. Have you considered talking with someone about this? I know with my depression I felt ashamed and alone, so numb yet overwhelmed by the anxious feelings and thoughts. Just talking with a counselor can do wonders! I want you to know you are valuable and there are people who can and will help if you let them in. Please don't allow this to define you or cause you to harm yourself, you deserve so much more in life. BonnieSue gave some great numbers to call, please give it a try. We are here to talk anytime okay. What do you think led to this point? What is going on in your life that is causing you to feel so overwhelmed? Sometimes getting to the root of the emotions is the first step to healing. Please reach out to someone you trust and let them know you need someone to understand. Stay strong, you have meaning and value that the world needs to know about. Hugs.