Black Sheep

I remember hearing my parents use this term as a kid in regards to an uncle once. I remember thinking to myself. What does that mean?? Fast forward they now say it of me...... My approach to life has always been different from the rest of my family. I’m the risk taker in their eyes. Because of my lifestyle I experience extreme highs and unfortunately lows as well. More lows as of late but it’s always been up and down. One month I may have built an app that I’m excited about. I’ll be on cloud nine with the excitement of what could be. A months later it may not have worked out quite as planned and I get to experience “my” extreme low. I say “my” because I realize after being on this app their a lot of people worse off than me. However it doesn’t make me feel any better. I want so bad for one just one of these ideas to work so I can feel like I haven’t wasted years of my life chasing dreams and ideas. I often think that me “making it” would prove to everyone and myself that I was right in the decisions I’ve made. I hate thinking about this but I’ve failed so many times I feel like I’m lying to myself at times. Why didn’t I listen to my family and get a regular job with benefits. What am so doing!?

[Agora1]

ABAZ, in response to your question "why don't I get a regular job with benefits?" is that some of us march to a different drummer. We seek out our dreams and set goals for ourselves that some wouldn't even think of doing. Getting out of the realm of safety and mundane. Going for the gold. More power to you but you need to know it comes with no guarantees. We can be known as the Black Sheep only because we choose to be different. xx

[hrow]

I think it was Albert Einsetein who had like 50 failures before he had a success. He never gave up trying and neither should you. You never know which app will be a hit so just keep creating. One of them may be a successl You never know so just keep inventing! If you like what you do it will pay off eventually. It is better than just doing a job that is safe and you don't really like!

H