Just my imagination

[iwantobetter27]

So I suffer from anxious and post traumatic issues. I get so mentally tired by imagining the worst situations and how to avoid them. But the worst is when i think about what happened yesterday or an hour ago or 3 years ago I sit around thinking to myself imagine if that argument went horrible out of control. Guilt... guilt... guilt.... imagine if I would of done something wrong. Imagine if I ruin my life and how guilty I would be if I ever done something wrong. I just want to stop questioning myself and be afraid of having any kind of feelings .... I just want to be sure I'm a good person. I just want to stop thinking. I want to be happy again

Am I the only one?

[Hidden]

Hello iwanttobetter27!

I think you’re just worrying too much! When you’re looking back or forward (which you technically shouldn’t do) try looking for the positive aspects of your actions instead of the negative. It all works better for me when I live in today/the moment, not looking back or forward. Stop second-guessing yourself all the time and try to trust your instincts as you reach for positivity in your life and journey through depression/anxiety. You can practice the art of changing your mindset/outlook anytime! I’m wishing you peace and happiness 🙂🌺🙂

[iwantobetter27 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you. And yes that is very much truth. Believe me I had good days. I had save words to bring me into reality or tokens to remain me I'm still here. But as the good days get more and more rare and the bully mind of mine takes over a decided I'm ready for visiting a professional.

I think it has lots to do with been a young adult. I'm so lucky on my present that I worry of all the ways that I could loose what I got now ....and then lol I worry of how my life would be if I never got into the life I have now. Mean while without enjoying my present.

[iwantobetter27 in reply to iwantobetter27]

But today feels good. So I'm going to keep it that way. busy !!! Is the key word. Focusing on my art projects and paintings. I really hope you have a very nice Tuesday. I'm thankful for your reply.

[pam4him]

First, take a deep breath, slowly in, slowly out. Second, if you are worrying this much, you most likely ARE a good person. Third, time is the one thing we cannot get back, once it is spent. By worrying about should have's, it steals from the present and can rob us of joys that are right in front of us. Only look back to see how far you have come. Maybe start a joy journal-recording any thing that made you smile, laugh, feel relaxed, etc. Then when you're mind starts worrying, read your joy journal to remind you of the good things in your life. We all slip up at times, but that is an instant, not your total character. Try to relax and let life just happen while you look for the joy in it. Prayers for peace for you.

[iwantobetter27 in reply to pam4him]

Agreed.