Social Phobia and my awkwardness

[bunnyc]

Hi all, does anyone have social anxiety like me? I just realized all my weird behaviors among people is actually this disease.

It started from high school triggered by a traumatic experience. When the room is quiet, I started to feel very uncomfortable about my face and body and I didn’t know how to swallow my saliva. I couldn’t help making very fast and insanely like facial or body movement. And when I finally figured to swallow saliva, I made disgusting noise with a bone in my ears and throat. The other people stared and laughed at me when I did so. I feel so bad and didn’t know how to stop it. My weird behaviors and panic also come out when I’m around attractive men(I’m a girl) So it scared away boys I like.

It’s been ten years and I tried to relax but these things still happen frequently. It may not seem to be a big deal compared with many other diseases but I deeply wish I could act like a normal person and being not social awkwardly.

[Hidden]

I'm so sorry you're dealing with this. Are you getting any help? Sounds like it would be a good thing for you to do for yourself, as you're special...there's only one you! i wish for you peace. Love & Hugs!!!

[bunnyc in reply to Hidden]

Thank you for the advice. I went to doctors twice but they couldn’t see my problems. So I googled and found these things all belong to social phobia and related to stress and anxiety. I’m not the severe type of it but the embarrassment is still bothering me. Now I just try to use the method I found online to calm and relax myself. I didn’t find a group so I came here. Hope I could meet people with similar problems and at the same time I sincerely wish nobody got these kind of things. I saw that your username has anxiety, I hope you get rid of it as you planned and feel a lot of better! Lots of love and hugs to you too!

[Hidden in reply to bunnyc]

I would still seek a Dr. or therapist for help. Now I'm not telling you what to do, it just makes sense to me. Yes I have dealt with anxiety/depression for 29 years. I'm in a good place now though! It takes a lot of work & we can learn how to deal with it! I wish you nothing but the best! Love, light, peace, joy & Hugs!!!

[bunnyc in reply to Hidden]

I’m glad to hear that you are doing well now! I got depression too after that PTSD and I knew how hard it was to fight against it and live normally like the other people. So I’m really happy for you! And I agree with you that professional help is very important, I just need to save money for a while so I could afford it. Wish you all the best and thank you so much for talking and helping me! Big hug!!!

[Hidden in reply to bunnyc]

I have PTSD also, a lot of fun , huh? Believe me I still have my times , I'm sorry that you can't get the help you need, our health system in the US stinks! I read a really good book, got it on ebay, free shipping.....Mind Over Mood, it's a great book, maybe give it a try in the meantime. i'm here for you, lovely to meet you! Love, light, joy, peace & hugs!!!

[bunnyc in reply to Hidden]

I’ll definitely try it. Thanks a lot for the recommendation. It’s normal that depression comes back to visit us sometimes, so you are already doing very well! Last time I felt very bad and couldn’t control myself, I went to Yoga classes. It really helps. Maybe it could be a backup plan when you wanna try something else. It’s great to meet you. I’m here for you too! All the best!

[Hidden in reply to bunnyc]

I'm more of a cardio person, I guess I like to get the heart rate up, hahaha!!! Best of luck with the book, it's a good one! Love & Hugs!!!

[Lakewolf]

I have it from severe PTSD. I used to loathe going out to restaurants until I realised I was in no danger.

Even disabled, I can still defend myself...though the consequences wouldn’t be so good for the attacker.

Just go out with some friends to start. If you haven’t any, and don’t have any family,start by going to a place like a museum. It’s quiet, and even if you don’t like art, it’s a calming place.

After you,be become accustomed to that, go to a mall, then for a walk around your neighborhood.

I wish you the best.

[bunnyc in reply to Lakewolf]

Thank you Lakewolf. I’m sorry about your suffering from severe PTSD and being hurt. It’s very brave of you that you recover from it little by little, and gain a new view of life. I’ll try to meet my friends, they are kind girls who don’t think my problem is that disgusting. Thank you again and I wish you best of luck of everything.

[Lakewolf in reply to bunnyc]

You are more than welcome.

[rach1402]

It's great that you've gained knowledge and understanding of your issues but you should really get it confirmed by a doctor, in case there is an underlying cause, maybe autism spectrum disorder or Tourette's. I hope you get to the bottom of it so you can find the right solution for you, otherwise you're only going to be treating the symptoms. I hope my honesty doesn't offend you, I'm just trying to be constructive and I have some experience of similar problems in females. I hope you get some help soon x

[bunnyc in reply to rach1402]

Thank you for your honesty, it doesn’t offend me at all. I never thought of those two diseases and I think I should really go see a doctor again as soon as I have enough money. Thank you again and I wish you all the best!

[Bomo]

I'm literally sorry you have to go through all this pain, I am not proud to say I am also going through the same thing. I wish nothing but healing for you,nobody deserves such pains. Hope all goes well soon. You are loved and appreciated by me even though I might not know you...

[bunnyc in reply to Bomo]

Thank you! It’s so annoying and embarrassing for us to have these problems, even though rationally I know people are not that scary. I hope you feel better and get away from it eventually. And like the other kindest people here told me, maybe you can go see a therapist if possible. I wish you the best of luck and lots of love and sunshine.

[LaPetiteGen]

I am so sorry that you are struggling with this, it is difficult to be around others when you feel different and have anxiety over what others may think. Please know that you are special- a unique creation that has so much to offer in this world and it hurts my heart that you feel like you must hide yourself. I’m encouraged that you are exploring techniques to deal with your issues & I too have found that yoga is a great way to help with anxiety and focusing your thoughts on positives in your body and life. Praying that you will learn to bloom where you are planted and believe that you are a beautiful creation that is worthy of adoration.

[bunnyc in reply to LaPetiteGen]

Thank you! That’s very sweet of you. I’ll keep trying for sure. I wish you all the best.

[Hidden]

I'm sorry you're going through this. I think my social anxiety stemmed from my junior high and high school years from being teased. I was pretty much a "mute" when I was in high school and I didn't want to talk to anyone else but my group of friends. I didn't even bother with them all that much. I regret it because I should've been enjoying those times, but I had an overprotective mom anyway. It wouldn't have made a difference.

[bunnyc in reply to Hidden]

Mine high school experience is very similar to yours. I hated it so much. I wondered a lot if I was more normal then everything might be different. Sadly there’s no ‘if’, and after I realized it, I moved on a little and barely thought of it any more. I hope you move on from the unpleasant stuff too. Best wishes!

[Hidden in reply to bunnyc]

I've since moved on as well. I chalk it up as life experience and we all have different experiences. That's what life is all about. We're not going to have the same high school experience and that's okay. I hated high school and I wanted to graduate early but I couldn't because I couldn't pass two classes, no matter how hard I worked. Hope you feel better soon. <3

[bunnyc]

I totally agree. It’s ok for us to have unhappy teenage times. Thank you and good luck with everything!