I am currently a junior in college. Everything that is normal college student behavior is totally unappealing to me. Living on campus, away from home caused me severe nervousness and I often broke down multiple times within the week. The thought of attending a party makes me really uncomfortable and I never go out. I feel like on the one hand, I don't want to do what I don't want to do, but I also feel like I just am not normal for what everyone else is doing as college students and around my age. I have a boyfriend that I have been with for three years, and I often spend a lot of time with him because he is really understanding and makes me feel comfortable, and the same goes with my family. There are some weeks that I even have a hard time going out and doing something for a couple hours because I get worried about leaving my family. I have always been anxious my entire life, but when I went to college I feel like it just sky rocketed. Now, I am going to move home and commute for this year, but I just feel like that isn't normal. I made friends in college through my sorority, but I have not really developed terribly close friendships, with the exception of two girls. I am worried I am not doing what I should be doing or what I am expected to do as a college kid and I am adding that stress onto the rest of my nervousness. Has anyone else ever been in a similar situation or felt that way? I feel like its only me.
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I can totally relate to your story, since I myself am a college student who is socially awkward. I dread to go to school, since I just want to be away from everyone and always find myself hiding behind a book. I just want to be home every single day and be alone. I worry that I just don't act normal these feelings interfere with my daily activities and I just don't know what to do. So, you are not the only one.
There is nothing wrong with wanting to spend more time with your family and not wanting to party. Personally, I am the same as you. I would rather stay home with my family than go out and party. Some people just have different interests and that is perfectly fine! It is good that your family and your boyfriend like to do the same things as you. That is so important! I hope everything gets better!