I’m new here but have been dealing with anxiety and depression for awhile now. Usually I do pretty well managing it on my own. But lately it feel just like a little too much. I’m sure it’s very much stress related as I’m in the final months of graduate school. But I feel myself drawing myself away from my friends and loosing interest in work and hobbies. Also feel like I have been unreasonably grumpy and angry at people. And it doesn’t help that all I want to do is sleep but then can’t at normal hours. And then stuck with these thoughts of self harm.
I know I won’t act on these thoughts as that would prevent me from taking care of my pet who keeps me as level as possible.
I have had these same types of feelings before and did not really end that well. But in that whole process I gained a big distrust of therapists. I got the impression from them that they thought all my feelings were just because of an ended relationship. But this on top of family and friends not understanding or wanting to understand just made me not want to see or talk to anyone. And that has worked for years up until now.
I’m not really sure how to get through this distrust in therapists, or family and friends when it comes to this. Although I have access to some healthcare money is certainly tight which does not help the situation.