Can’t stop crying

[weegmack]

Last day of our holiday and I was really looking forward to taking my girls to the cinema. But I’m stuck left behind, they’re away with their dad. I have had two anxiety attacks this morning and awful IBS. No idea how I’m going to make it home tomorrow (loooong drive). But I’m so disappointed to be, yet again, missing out on something nice, thanks to the vicious circle Iof Anxiety Disorder and IBS 😞😞😞

[Carcar89]

I know just how you feel I feel such guilt not being able to take pleasure in anything at the moment especially with my daughter ☹️ I’m here if you wanna talk stupid panic attacks!! Hate the

[weegmack in reply to Carcar89]

I hate anxiety with every fibre of my being. I’m really depressed just now. Holidays can be hard for me, because I get into a state for the journey here and then I get into a state about the journey home. I have GAD (Genralised Anxiety Disorder) and OCD. It’s like fighting a beast every day. It’s a horrible, vicious circle with my IBS. 7 years ago I started to self-starve, because eating seemed impossible. I generally don’t do that now and I have a much healthier relationship with food. But IBS is such a huge trigger for my anxiety (long story but it’s as a result of childhood neglect). But I know today, I’m going to have to hardly eat or drink so I can safely travel tomorrow. I just hate living like this. 😕

[Cares179 in reply to weegmack]

I feel your pain I have IBS-C and anxiety with pan nick attacks. I am scheduled to fly with my family next weekend to Hawaii and although I am excited I hate to fly! Every time I fly or know that I am my anxiety gets so bad and then my IBS kicks in. I have cancelled my last 2trips because of this and I will not let it get the best of me this time!

[weegmack in reply to Cares179]

I switch between IBS-C and D. It’s D today! I feel really grim. I was IBS-D dominant for years, then I got a Mirena Coil fitted in 2014 and it became IBS-C. I’ve been doing quite a bit of cycling on my holiday and I think that, plus the anxiety of travelling home tomorrow, has caused it to swing to IBS-D. Let’s just say my bowel has been very active this week 😬. I really hope you can make it to Hawaii - it sounds wonderful. Xxx

[Carcar89 in reply to weegmack]

Aw you poor thing I know how you feel my anxiety affects eating at the moment I have no appetite food makes me feel ten times worse yet it’s what keeps us healthy so how ironic ! Do you take any medication? Let me just say though at the moment I’m to anxious to even go outside so give yourself a Pat on the back for going on holiday ! Just that fact tells me that you are braver and stronger than you think ! Don’t be so hard on yourself I know it’s hard believe me I’m going through hell at the moment but I believe self belief and self love is a big part of how our minds work. You are warrior ! You’ve made it this far maybe you can make it further one step at a time hun ! X

[weegmack in reply to Carcar89]

I take Laxido because I have mainly IBS-C. But when I’m anxious, my bowel just becomes very active and today it’s IBS-D. I literally can not control my anxiety and panic. I have to take 2mg Diazepam, which I know isn’t something to be proud of. I’ve taken two of those, but they’re wearing off now and I’m beginning to feel really wobbly again. I’m also on Nexium for GERD, a beta blocker and amitriptyline (a low dose, used off-licence for pain as I also have chronic daily headache). It’s just like living in a state of fear all the time and I’m exhausted.

I’m sorry you’re having a really rough time too 😞

[Carcar89 in reply to weegmack]

Everyone needs something to take the edge off when we are going through hard times don’t be so hard on yourself ! Have you tried yoga ? I’ve been trying to do yoga with Adrienne on YouTube It’s not an instant relief but I feel a strange sense of calm afterwards so going to try and stick with it for a while and see if it improves my mind . Maybe try it and let me know what you think . And remember where there is life there is hope .i hope that you feel

Better soon xx

[weegmack in reply to Carcar89]

Funnily enough, I just started Yoga with Adrienne a couple of weeks ago (doing the 30 year yoga challenge). I really enjoy it. I’ll start back doing it when I get home. Just seriously feeling sorry for myself today 🙄

[Carcar89 in reply to weegmack]

Really ? Wow great minds think alike ay ? Yeah let’s get to it ! Maybe we can chat about how it’s making us feel progress e.t.c . I get them days at least 5 out of 7 so don’t feel bad someone’s gotta feel sorry for us ay ? Haha 😁