I feel empty inside , my boyfriend is getting married to someone else .

[Princy2908]

We had a beautiful relationship ,we we're in live in relationship , we used to be together every day every second. Whole college used to idealise as best couple . after he got placed in different city. It didnt even took one month he got engaged to someone else. He tried to explain me that his family is forcing him to do that but then I got to know from his mother, his marriage was fixed 3 years back .it collapsed me , whole year turned out to be a big lie .. I m in the same city where I have memories with him in every place. after sometime I suffered from typhoid for 1 month and to my surprise the person who used to take care of every little thing didn't even ask about my health. I left my exams when he was not fine and went to meet him but he didn't even texted me when I was in the bed for month .. I lost my job and went through emotional trauma I used to cry day and night for why this is happening to me . What I did to deserve this.? How can anyone change in seconds . I again joined in other company started working . And I don't cry anymore but his memories haunt me in dreams . I don't feel sad , on the other hand I don't feel happy also . I just feel empty .all empty as if there is no life in my life .this cheating is so big that i have lost all the self confidence and trust on myself that I m such a fool that I didn't recognize this cheater .now I can't trust on my self also forget about others. next month is his marriage and still I m not over yet, he is my first love , And I know he won't come back neither I m accepting . But I m not fine . I m trying my hard to be normal but something has gone from my inside . It's like living but not alive sometimes . Wat should I do to rejuvenate myself..???

[BG298]

I think you have to realize that it was not your mistake... It was his mistake. I was in a relationship for 2 years, and I found out he was cheating on me for the last few months before we ended it because he was "moving out of the state". It's not you, but your ex-partner who did it all wrong and now it is costing you your mental stability. You sound like an amazing person who did anything and everything for the one you loved, but there comes a point where you have to put self love before any other love. Loving yourself is the most important thing in life. So instead of asking yourself "what's wrong with me?", " What did I do wrong?", ask yourself "what did I learn?" and "What can I do to feel better?". You can never let someone make you feel defeated because it sinks into your mind that something is wrong with yourself, but actually, something is wrong with the other person. He knew he had a marriage arrangement and still chose to pursue something with you, he must know what it is like to lose something, so you start living your life again. Go out and experience life again so that you can be reborn through mother nature and the people you meet. Then all else won't matter, things will fall into place. You are not empty honey, you are just feeling the heart break blues, as am I. You will heal though, I promise <3

[Sheilapate88]

I went through a similar experience. I was in love with this man and did everything I could for him and his family. He proposed to me and I was head over heels excited. I got pregnant during Christmas time ( freshman in college during this time) and end up having a miscarriage. He left me and told me not to contact him again, and few years later he got marry and had a daughter...Even though this man told me that, It was very hard to walk away. I use to look at his facebook everyday, asked his friends about him, I did it all. Overall, I was depress because I couldn't believe that this situation was happening to me. I constantly cried and smoke and didn't take college seriously. It took me years and years to finally stop thinking about him but, when it stopped I met someone that was meant for me and love me for "me". What has help me to stop putting myself through that was by trying to find myself again. I lived my life through him instead of living my life for me. I focus on what I deserve, even when I felt I didn't deserve nothing I had to force myself to the point of really believing it. I had to remind myself my life doesn't have to stop over him. What I am about to say is a cliché (I use to hate when people told me this during the breakup) but, love will find you when you let go all the hurt. You don't deserve to be down like this! praying for you

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I wouldn’t call him a boyfriend if he is getting married. I would say ex boyfriend.

[gogogirl]

I know this is an annoying saying, but he was not for you or really was not ready. Now, you'll have time to live an amazing life ahead of you. You're grieving because of a loss, and that is normal. Give yourself a break, and spend time with those who really know you and appreciate you as you are even when you are feeling less than cheery.