I feel like dieng and scared and shaky and weak .😞

[Vannessa44]

So I been going through alot.

It's been 27 days since I drove my own car I tried to do it tonight but I started shaking and my whole throat and tounge started feeling tingling my throat sore right now I guess .and well I'm crying right now because I feel like I can't do anything . guy's I feel like I will never heal I'm trying hard to get better I really am both there nothing not even medicine ugh I pray and pray I wish I can be better I really need a therapist asap because I'm going crazy right now like I can't handle it.

[hunter4ransom]

Vannessa, you may feel like you are going crazy, but you are not. A lot of us here can completely identify with those horrible physical and emotional feelings you are having. First, you need to know you aren't alone. You came to a wonderful group who will be here for you, support you, encourage you, and let you know that you aren't going crazy or unwanted/unloved because of your struggles. Mornings are the most horrible for me and the time when I hit my lowest point in the day. I often feel dead inside and awake in panic attacks that are just unrelenting. But by night, I feel a lot more in control and take advantage of that time to help others and do a little self care. I have a few sayings I keep around that I read every morning as awake in my panic....1) "This won't last forever and these feelings WILL go away." 2) "I have survived before and I WILL survive now." 3) "I am not in any danger, I am safe." I have a list, but I keep these by my bedside table and read them upon waking up. I also started taking Zoloft and Kolonipin and started seeing a therapist a few weeks ago. There is no magic pill or easy way to get to "normal" fast, but there is help and hope and tons of love and support here. I have my terrible moments, but then I have moments like right now where I feel like life is going to be okay. Hang in there. I'm here if you need to chat. Night time is my best time, mornings I'm still a mess but a work in progress.

[Vannessa44 in reply to hunter4ransom]

Yes I just hope I can safe up money for therapy because I really need it I need to learn to control these symptoms because it's making me depressed the doctors and my family thinks I'm crazy because when I tell them my head is hurting and I'm shaking they can't see it because it doesn't show on the outside i feel it in the inside and it's really bad 😞I'm so happy that I'm on this website site because I be going crazy thinking I'm alone with no help 😞I really want to get through this and I pray that I do thank you so much for understanding I hope I can be like you and learn to get through this .and ugh night's are my worst 😭

[Jj30039]

I truly understand how u feel and I say the same thing about myself my boyfriend usually does all the driving but when we get mad at each other I say well I can drive myself and when I go to get in the car I freak out I'm not sure why the feeling comes over me it just does and I feel as if I were going crazy myself I pray God gives u strength because going thru it isn't a good feeling

[Vannessa44 in reply to Jj30039]

Thank you so much and I pray God give you strength to go through it too and I know it's the worst feeling I feel like the pain is just stuck in my head and won't go away and the shaking won't stop but I'm trying I really am I just gotta believe and trust I can sometimes it's hard but we will get through this I pray.

[Jj30039 in reply to Vannessa44]

Thank you we will get thru it

[Vannessa44 in reply to Jj30039]

Thank you so much really !😊