Self loathing thoughts

[Byelka]

Recently I've been more aware of my own self loathing thoughts. Most of my anxiety comes from feeling inadequate in some way. Feelings that I'm letting people down around me. Assuming others see all of these things and agree. It's been keeping me up at night recently. I'll be about asleep and I'll feel panic arise from nowhere. At first I'm not sure what the panic is from, then one of these thoughts come up and I have to fight to let it go. I try breathing techniques usually. That sometimes works. Other times it comes in waves throughout the night. Sometimes it's focused on work performance, sometimes it's the debt I've accumulated, sometimes it's my marriage, sometimes it's the weight I've gained, sometimes it bounces around between all of them. I know it's a pattern, a habit I've formed but I'm not sure how to break it. Anyone else do this? How to you cope?

[thatjuanguy]

Yes I have this problem also years ago I started listening to audiobooks of books I’ve read(I really like to read) it helps me focus my brain on the story and fall asleep. Maybe something like this could help you?

[Byelka in reply to thatjuanguy]

Excellent idea. Thank you

[thatjuanguy in reply to Byelka]

No problem I hope it helps I use to stay up for hours before I started using them it’s not fun.

[morenews]

I have the same issue, but not even at night but any time of the day. I am not sure it is a good thing to cope that way, but it helps to do something good for people around me. For example, i feel depressed and don't want to do anything, but i would make some favorite dish for my husband regardless of how i feel. it is just a small thing but it helps me to feel better about myself. Unfort. sometimes it is not a good way because i always have to prove to myself that i am not so bad. And the right thing would be: to accept yourself the way i am. not so perfect but still deserving my own love and care.