Not Feeling it today!

[Punk1977]

I am just in another mood today,not really sure why.I am back to feeling hopeless and like there is nothing to look forward to.I continuously keep thinking about getting older and dying or my husband or parents dying and I being left all alone.I just can't shake this feeling,does anyone else have this concern?I am on med,and tried therapy numerous times,well for that matter,I have tried everything!!I guess I might as well except that this is just my life.

[Agora1]

Hi Punk1977, This is Life. For every season, there's a reason. You are only 40, you're still in the spring of the year.

Thinking about death of our parents or ourselves normally crosses our minds throughout our lives. The more we focus on that thought the less time we have to enjoy our lives.

Therapy may help but there isn't a medication that can magically take that thought away. It must come from within us. Finding ways to keep that spark of Life alive is our responsibility. Be around people who are positive and enjoy life in the moment is the answer. I hope being on this forum will help you by sharing other's thoughts on death. It is very much a part of Life.

Life is Good Embrace each day xx

[Punk1977 in reply to Agora1]

Thank you

[CazO46]

Hi, yes I too have a deep fear of either me or someone in my family dying prematurely. Out of the blue I developed a serious health problem about 7 months ago. I have two lovely children and s great husband so the thought of the pain it would cause them if I died was overwhelming. I'm still unwell but am better than I was and today I'm still here 😊. I don't know what's going to happen but I have been talking through my fears with a therapist and my family. I've started meditating and have drawn a great deal of strength, love and compassion from this great community. I see how damaging thinking too far ahead can be, take care X

[Cassie2178]

Hi Punk1977, I understand your dilemma. At age 36 my husband was diagnosed with kidney failure and I began to feel as you are feeling now. It drapes over you like a blanket and some days are worse than others. As time passed however, I made a choice to throw that "blanket" off. It was hard and some days I still face those emotions but I choose to get up and do something productive and I try to say out loud each day things I am grateful for and I look for beauty in this life. It is true, this life is a vapor that soon passes away but in the process I want to say "thank you" for allowing me to be a part of this marvelous world. Even in difficulty there is beauty. Hope you find the strength to adjust your focus. Hugs