Having bad anxiety attacks

[Lexi135]

Hi this is the 1st time I'm writing. I suffer from very bad anxiety attacks and its hard to calm back down.. have a fear of dying also.. and once my mind thinks I am boom an attack comes on. Need some good advice on how to get back to being me

[fauxartist]

Is this fear something that has only recently in your life manifested, or have you always had this fear?

[Lexi135 in reply to fauxartist]

Yes to people passed away and there's been a lot of shootings happening and to honest I'm scared to go outside.. I just wanna be alone sometimes . And I'm moving on 18 days I'm very anxious to get in my new place I'm just overwhelmed and I'm trying to hold it all together

[fauxartist in reply to Lexi135]

that is a lot to deal with for anyone, and I'm so sorry your going through this..any change for anyone is hard, and trauma certainly can leave us scared and damaged if we are already predisposed to anxiety ....

are you in therapy or on meds to help with the attacks and management of the anxiety....

[Lexi135 in reply to fauxartist]

I need to go back to see my doctor I was doing so good until last month I eat some food to late at night and I felt like I shouldn't have but I did I woke up so scared and dizzy I couldn't calm down I'm taking it one day at a time

[fauxartist in reply to Lexi135]

definitely go to see your doctor....no need to suffer....sometimes we just can't do it alone.....we need help.

[Lexi135 in reply to fauxartist]

Ur right about that I need it I think I was doing so well when I was going

[Lyn842]

Glad you posted. Nothing to be nervous about. Lots of nice folks on here. What else brings on your anxiety besides the fear of death? Is it death that scared you or the wondering how its going to happen? None of us know and if we keep thinking about it of course it will bring on anxiety. I have no fear of death itself because I firmly believe in heaven. Jesus is my Savior. I read my Bible and it tells me how wonderful it will be. No tears, no pain, no sickness etc. All because I believe in God and His Son, Jesus. You can too. Pick up a Bible and start reading the Gospel of John. That being said, what else scares you? I care.

[Lexi135 in reply to Lyn842]

No that's basically it .. I just dont wanna think those thoughts in my head at all I wanna enjoy like I have a 6 yr old son and he helps me a lot.. I do attend church and pray everytime I have some and listen to gospel music.. I believe in him too I just ha e to keep my faith but it's hard when the enemie what's u to fail

[Hidden in reply to Lexi135]

If it was so simple that we could be better just by praying then nobody would need to be on this site.

I agree with fauxartist, there are people of many faiths etc that use this place, some of us have been battered with religion me included, being told that if you believe then everything will be ok but it doesnt work like that. I understand that you and many others have your faith in your god which is your choice, but could you stop trying to push it onto eveyone else please.

[Lyn842 in reply to Hidden]

I did not even imply that prayer fixes everything. If that be the case I wouldn't be here. I share my faith to comfort others. I never do it in a pushy way. We are here to share what helps us, correct? In hopes that it just might be the one thing a person needs to hear. In this world of " don't offend me" people it can be hard. I accept other faiths and may not agree with them but will not force mine on someone. There's a saying in groups,....take what you need and leave the rest behind. As you can see, this person is a church goer and does pray to God. You just never know unless you step out.

[Lyn842 in reply to Lexi135]

You are so right that it is hard to keep our faith strong. Just keep at it. He is there for you and for everyone who wants Him. He never forces himself on anyone. Either you believe or you don't. Outside influences are constantly trying to make it hard. I've turned against God and gotten mad that I am not free from this depression and anxiety but in the end I know He IS helping me and I turn back to him. Music also helps me a lot.

[Lexi135 in reply to Lyn842]

Your right about that. It's just I wanna go back to the way I was waking up enjoying life and having fun. I constantly tell myself I'm going to be alright and of I doent apply let it fly .. then I can go on with my day I just have to keep moving forward.

[fauxartist in reply to Lyn842]

Just a thought, it's good to remember, not everyone is a Christian here....there are Jews, Buddhists, followers of Islam, and agnostics, etc.....and for some we have been battered and bruised with religious beliefs. Like politics....I found my own views not always appreciated by some...and that's understandable, we are all so different.

[Lexi135 in reply to fauxartist]

Right and I respect everyone believes

[Lyn842 in reply to fauxartist]

I do remember there are other beliefs out there. I don't feel threatened if others share their beliefs. I never mean to push mine. I mention it as something that helps me. That's not to imply its the only thing that helps. Meds, therapy, support groups, other treatments, they all come into play. Take what you need and leave the rest when reading others posts. We mean well and are only trying to comfort each other. To not share my faith is to not share me.

[fauxartist in reply to Lyn842]

Some of the slogans you use are also what I learned in 12 step recovery over the last 30 years, and they are good reminders of what's important to remember in recovery of all kinds. The drawback for me was being run down by others in meetings because I didn't want to make God and Jesus the focus of my recovery....there was always too much 'bible thumping' going on in meetings. It's very clear in program guidelines, that no one religious belief should be promoted over another or any religion for that fact....but it never stopped all the preaching....and it really turned me off. I don't believe in organized religion...and God didn't get or keep me sober...I did...and still am.

In program your told to get out of your own way and check the ego at the door, and there is a lot of self deprecating going on about how we are nothing etc....1 in 3 people in program have depression and there was no room to talk about therapy or any of that 'psychobabble' as long as you didn't drink everything would be okay...and turn that depression over to God.....well.....it's a chemical deficiency in the brain, and some of us have to take meds....and again...it was a 'Zero Policy' on medication back then. There's already enough low self esteem for most of us with depression, I didn't need to keep knocking myself down in recovery either.

[Lyn842 in reply to fauxartist]

I can understand where you are coming from. I'm sorry you were so turned off. That can happen. I don't like organized religion either. I believe in relationship not religion. I was in OA for many years. I loved it but then I got to the point that because they kept pushing that if I had "just one" I would be off on a binge till it became what I did. There is good and not so good in everything it seems. I had very low self esteem but once I started seeing myself as God sees me I began to change. I put in the leg work. He just guided me along.Just as I believe He does with my mental/emotional health.

[fauxartist in reply to Lyn842]

....I can totally understand....I have no problem what so ever with someone's personal beliefs....it's none of my business....but I did take issue when people were chastised for commenting about politics on a blog about politics causing this guys depression to worsen....most agreed with myself and others....but I had to be fair and take issue with whether it was the right forum to talk about it , as some said politics had no place on this site. Okay....but what about religion. That seems to get by-passed...and if one talks about Christianity....others seem to just jump on it and it becomes the subject of numerous blogs to follow suit. I was on a recovery site where I was relentlessly bullied, viciously, by some 'bible thumpers' for quoting the program by-laws about not pushing religious agenda....but it seems to get overlooked here...and people pick and choose what they decide is okay to talk about...as long as it's not politics....I find it hypocritical.

[Lyn842 in reply to fauxartist]

Politics is not calming or helpful to anyone. Faith can be comforting to many. Enough on the subject. I will continue to share what helps me when I so feel led.

[hunter4ransom]

You aren’t alone Lexi. I have recently started suffering horrible anxiety after weaning off my Zoloft and then being hit sideways with financial and family problems. The panic attacks are the worst in the morning. Do you know what triggered this episode? Sometimes knowing the trigger helps. Once we are triggered the horrible thoughts feel impossible to shake and can consume most of our day. Keep in mind that you felt healthy and good before and you will get there again. Talk with your doctor, lean on family and friends, and know we are here for you and understand.

[Lexi135 in reply to hunter4ransom]

Thank you .. I understand they gave me pills and I never took then because I'm scared to take them. Mornings are bad for me too I wake up out of my sleep sometime but I try to re Direct myself to something soothing or positive.. I offend I'm alone and I try not to be cause I know I need help I called my doctor today and got a appointment for tomorrow I I'm just hoping that helps me cause I'm just tired of all this I'm so stressed out it's not even funny and I feel like once everything is over..

I'm moving and then I have important business I have to handle next week I'm just trying to hold it all together.. n I know I'm going to be alright just got to keep pushing forward.

[SRNM]

I suffer from anxiety and panic attacks. I am on medications . I find keeping myself busy helps a lot.