giving up

[tylerjjjj]

I can't live a good life........ everything stresses me to the point i dont want to eat, drink or be around anybody. im so tired of things going bad in my life. idc if its big or small. its enough to make me feel like shit. i dont wanna hear "see a therapist" or "take drugs" im so tired of hearing people say they are there for me but im constantly alone and trying to figure out my next move by myself. Im tired of hoping for something better and nothing happening. Ive been stuck in depression and anxiety for almost 2 years now and i honestly dont care anymore. I try so hard, i pray, i do all that I can but its never good enough. People telling me to find the good in that bad... I LOST MY GRANDMA TO CANCER! im just supposed to get over that like it didnt literally happen a year ago. I cant find another job to save my life. school is starting back soon. my car is always fucking up. My business is in shits. Ive isolated myself from nearly everybody because im so tired of hearing people brag about all that they have knowing im struggling. I really dont wanna do this anymore. im so tired of crying and getting so frustrated that I ant see or want to pull my hair out. Nobody knows what im going thru except for health unlocked. nobody knows i want to die. Im just so tired.

[fauxartist]

Hey tyler.....please know that I do care and am sorry your going through all this....and yep....you may not realize it, but your kind of pushing and pulling at the same time....and it's what's keeping you stuck kiddo....you don't want to hear you need help, and push the people away trying to offer it to you....you sound like going through a grieving process still, and some help is really needed....your never gonna forget your grandma, and you gotta know she loves you and doesn't want you to be unhappy....but your sad and fed up not just cause you lost her....but your suffering from what it sounds like to me, and I'm not a professional, but it sounds like depression....and without outside help...for me personally...I could not get out of my funk...I could not move forward....if I didn't let anyone close, how could I get help....

[Hidden]

I felt the same way. I was agoraphobic for fourteen years. I didn’t leave my house in those fourteen years. My whole family was out living life. While I lived in my own personal hell. Don’t give up. Things get better. Give it more time. I overcame my panic disorder. You will overcome your anxiety and depression. It’s not what you do when things are going well that defines you. It’s what you do when the chips are down that counts. The hell you are going through right now doesn’t define you. You are stronger than it.