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im okay sadly I didn't die it should've worked

[pink83737]

look I’m glad you’re okay but, you are on this earth for a reason and that is why it didn’t work out...do you want to get better? You need to help yourself love

[Hidden in reply to pink83737]

idek if I want to do this anymore

[pink83737 in reply to Hidden]

you can do this, things are gonna get better i promise, i wouldn't lie to you. things take time to get better but you need to work at it and the more you work at this the sooner you will get better. You are here for a reason..dont ever forget that. Suicide doesn't end pain it just hands the pain down to someone else. So please please just stay, i want you to see that it gets better. You are gonna look back on this moment and realize it gets better. Im here if you ever need to talk or even a friend. If this makes u feel better were all gonna die at some point life this life is temporary, i will pray for you love. keep at the self care it will help you. do face masks, brush ur teeth, ur hair just the little things

[Hidden in reply to pink83737]

it only feels like im getting worse rn ive been fighting with my parents

[pink83737 in reply to Hidden]

well it might feel like that but you must keep going, push through this. If I can overcome it so can u, it’s possible

[Hidden in reply to pink83737]

I know u dont me but here it goes my parents are overbearing and controlling, im 19 in college and been dating my boyfriend for 3 yrs.. my parents get really mad when I want to go out, or want to stay late or want to go some social event or let me go away.. I wanted to go down the shore with my boyfriend and stay at a hotel for 2-3nights but my mom first immediately thinks no because she thinks were gonna have sex or that if we sleep in the same bed hes gonna force me to have sex with him. I love my boyfriend and he loves me and hes very respectful towards me and we have had sex before for 3 yrs and were smart and use protection. but my mother has really got me mad angry thinking about my boyfriend like that so ive been shutting her out, she never understands how much we love each other, ik it was nothing at first cuz were both young and in high school I was 15 turning 16 soon and he was 17 but now im 19 and and hes 20 and were in college, were not kids anymore and we've matured... I wish she saw the way my boyfriend and I are when were together especially in bed.. which is mostly we play fight and he stares at me and I stare at him back and I tell him I love him and we snuggle together and we fall asleep in each others arms... I wish she saw that so shed understand how much we love each other.

[pink83737 in reply to Hidden]

your mom just cares about you <3

[Hidden in reply to pink83737]

if she cared she would let me go and let me be happy because apparently she doesn't care if her own daughter is happy or if her boyfriend makes her happy and takes her away from all the depression/ anxiety and suicide thoughts

[ALTOV]

Hey I hope you didn't try anything unwitty. You are better than that.

[Hidden in reply to ALTOV]

swallowing the pills didn't work unfortunately im so dumb I can't even kill myself right

[Marshall64 in reply to Hidden]

Your "failure" might not be because you are dumb but because you have a purpose in this world. Reach out to people. Learn from this and move on a life of fulfillment. I'm sure you have people that love you.

I don't know you but I'm glad you failed.

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this is my second time I've failed last time I was a freshmen in highschool and it was with pills too but I actually blacked out and threw them up myself when I woke up on the bathroom floor

[ALTOV in reply to Hidden]

That's because you have a purpose and your purpose has not been fulfilled. Nothing is worth committing suicide for.

[Hidden in reply to ALTOV]

u think so???

[Hidden]

Apulla14, everyone is right you do have a purpose in this world. Wouldn't you want to live so you can see how a future with your boyfriend will be?. Don't you think he will be very sad if he looses you ?. I know you want to be with him and your mom is very controlling but give it time. Be patient, finish school and once you do that you and your boyfriend can make the decision that's right for your and his future.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

with all that I was going through I was too distracted to even think about my boyfriend, and now I feel incredibly stupid, I do want a future with my boyfriend I love him sooo much and he matters to me gosh he would've been destroyed if I was dead

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

You see, there are people in your life that love you so much, don't abandon them. Be patient, your time to do all those things with your boyfriend will come..

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

thank you

[fauxartist in reply to Hidden]

'the ripple effect'...is devistating....

[fauxartist]

I've read all your posts....and see your getting a lot of responses from people trying to help you....yet each post is the same....it may be time my friend to get into and in-patient care facility. I am so sorry your in this dark place and from what I've read....it does not seem to be getting better....please get help.

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it is not getting better and i want to move out immediately