Morning anxiety. Again.

[Shutterbug65]

I know I posted about this before. But does anyone else here suffer from intense morning anxiety? Everyday I wake up and within a few seconds I’m very anxious and always have trouble getting back to sleep. Constantly worrying about everything. I do have a lot of problems, and if one thing goes wrong I’m afraid I’m going to end up homeless. Please can someone relate to this?

Also I think about suicide, I’m afraid that one day it will happen. I’m alone, have no friends other than those at work. And my family (cousins) have moved on with their own lives. And those I was most closest to have passed away.

Thank you everyone for all the great replies and support in my earlier posts.

[Lyn842]

I may not be suffering to the extent you are but I do have morning anxiety. Many times when I'm really depressed I don't want to see another day begin. I just want to stay asleep and not face another miserable day. Force yourself to get up and be productive even if its just taking a shower and getting dressed. I can't imagine what fear of being homeless feels like. Is it because you are financially strapped? I'm really sorry. Just do the best you can, that's all you can do. Thoughts of suicide are normal when extremely stressed with feelings of no way out. Seek help or call a hotline if the feelings are overwhelming. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Life changes and I sincerely hope yours changes for the better. Hugs

[Shutterbug65 in reply to Lyn842]

Yes I do feel trapped. And what if my problems are not temporary but permanent and will only get worse. Everybody here seems like they are able to cope in one way or another. Yes I do have financial problems among other things that are only going to get worse. It’s one thing after another. I tend to always put things off until they get worse. I don’t know how people deal with serious problems in life and yet seem happy. Now I’m alone, anxious and depressed.

[Lyn842 in reply to Shutterbug65]

Everyone on here are not coping or happy so please know you are not alone. We ARE here to support you. You can only do what you are capable of doing. Things may get worse, but things may get better also. Just because you can't see how or when doesn't mean they won't. Take one day at a time and try not to think ahead and think negatively. We do have control of our own minds to some extent. Block the bad thoughts with pictures in your mind that are beautiful, flowers, sunsets, birds,beaches, whatever makes you smile inside, even for a second. Just because I am coping with my life now doesn't mean I always have. I've been thru he'll and back many times. You haven't walked in my shoes and I haven't yours, BUT I made it thru and you will too, even if the worse Does happen. C'mon hon. Listen to us who at the moment are trying to help.

[Shutterbug65 in reply to Lyn842]

Thank you for the advice. I’ll try. I walk hand in hand with negativity, I need to change that.

[Shutterbug65 in reply to Lyn842]

I just feel very alone. I’m 53 never been married have no children and most of my friends have moved on. They have kids who are either graduating high school or are in College. It boils down to they have a life. I leave work and come home to an empty house, except for my cat. It’s a sad life. Don’t you think?

[Fullersburg]

If you can talk to a doctor about this you may be given a drug to help settle you down. A prescription plus breathing and relaxation exercises are helpful for managing anxiety . I am proof of that. Whatever you do don’t call a crisis line unless you feel like you are going to harm yourself right now. I made that mistake, thinking I could talk about grief, and the crisis worker sent police and EMTs who forcibly transported me to an ER, then to a mental hospital. That ordeal is not what you, or anybody else needs. They did me more harm than good.

You probably have free support groups in your community. Check them out. Force yourself, just as I forced myself to get up and dressed and out the door today. You’re not alone. People want to help. Just be careful who you talk to. You are worthy of living without emotional pain. You are worthy of happiness.

[Shutterbug65 in reply to Fullersburg]

Thank you for the tip about the crisis help line. I thought that they were there to help you talk and to offer help. And only on certain circumstances they would notify the police. Thanks for letting me know because I considered calling them.

I am on meds. mostly for anxiety. I’ve been seeing a phychiatrist for years now, the same one. I was going to a therapist but my co pay was to much each week. I have Obamacare so it’s not the best insurance. And It cost a lot per month, even with my tax credit. I just have a lot of problems now, one after another, and I always had a difficult time coping. IRS problems tops the bill. And when I wake up my mind just goes right to negative, and I lay there just dwelling on my life. It just becomes to much after a while.

Thanks again for your reply.

[Lyn842 in reply to Fullersburg]

I'm sorry you had that experience with calling a crisis line. Usually they don't do that unless you say you don't want to live anymore or have nothing to live for, and of course if you are talking of harming yourself. I called one not to long ago and that didn't happen. That must have been awful.

[Shutterbug65 in reply to Lyn842]

That’s what I thought. That they are there to help you talk things through. I’m guessing they must have gone through some kind of training to recognize if someone is truly suicidal or not. And how was your experience with them? Do they offer help?