No one gets it

[AshleyMS]

Ive been desperate to find a group of people to talk to who understand what I’m feeling and why I’m going through. For the past year or more I’ve been dealing with anxiety, but the last couple months in particular have been debilitating. I’ve been to the ER convinced I was having a heart attack. My heart was perfect and my “concern level” for admittance was a zero. So I went home that day feeling better. But I woke up the next morning convinced that SOMETHING was causing this. The every day lightheadedness, the headaches, the shortness of breath, the numbness in my hands. Twice this week I had to leave work early. I had a professional lunch with colleagues today and felt like I might pass out. I couldn’t even concentrate on the important conversation. I literally feel like my body is shutting down. So now, instead of my head, I’m afraid I have a brain tumor. I’m a logical person. I try to tell myself it’s this anxiety and panic beast that I’m living with, but I can’t shake it. I’m in a constant state of anxiety. Constant. I don’t wish anyone else to feel this way, but need to know if anyone does. I feel like I tell people around me, but it’s hard on them to try and understand. I’ve been to every doctor to rule our physical symptoms (working on a neurologist appointment...for reassurance) but literally do not know where to turn. I’m on Xanax everyday, around .5 a day. It doesn’t seem to be helping. I just feel alone and like I should be wasting away on my couch. 4 months ago I was in the gym in amazing shape. I haven’t even been able to go to the gym in a month and a half, I went once and left 10 minutes later. I just feel like I’m in a hole I can’t get out of.

[Natsteveo]

Hi AshleyMS

Sounds like health anxiety to me because i have this too have had it for over 11years something will be in my head like say at the minute I've got bad chest pain so I'm thinking I'm gonna have a heart attack so went drs got blood test next week and ecg so I'm worried it will be some kind of heart disease then when I get reassured my mind will then turn to something else for me to focus on because I'm like you when things get reassured I'm thinking so what caused it so when I'll focus on another illness and it goes on and on and on...only since a year ago I was diagnosed with ptsd health anxiety and depression I have a high dose of anti depressants and beta blockers and when I'm in a panic stage nothing works it sucks I get you and I understand your frustration I get angry with myself with my family and friends and colleagues and dry because I feel no one gets me and no one understand me I also feel a burden it's not nice to deal with is it...

Just know your not alone we all have something in common with what your going through maybe we can help each other out

Here if you need a chat

Nat.

[AshleyMS in reply to Natsteveo]

Thank you so much for your response. Do the depression meds and beta blocker seem to help?

[Natsteveo in reply to AshleyMS]

Yes they do they take the edge off but I am on a high dosage I've also trying to train my mind to think differently but its very hard

Nat