So angry today

[comb]

Last night I had super stressful dreams and I miss my old sleep medication. Today I woke up feeling so depressed and now I just feel rage at everything.

Angry about work, angry about this, angry about that. Angry that I was raped. Angry that I have to deal with depression and anxiety and ptsd. Angry that I doubt myself.

Shouldn't I just suck it up? Doesn't everyone have these problems?

Ugh I'm having such a hard time placing my anger appropriately, expressing it, and not taking it out on myself.

How do you deal with anger?

[geektastikal]

Let me be the first to say that yes! You are not the only one that has trouble dealing with anger. I think it's a side affect of depression. At least that's what I've experienced in my life. Angry at literally everything. No you shouldn't just suck it up, in fact that is virtually impossible because when you try to do that it burns hotter and hotter like a bomb that's about to explode but nobody knows when. And then the explosion is catastrophic. I should know. I've done it before. It doesn't work. The only thing that works is to find a friend who gets it. And talk through all of that crap. There's healing in letting it out. Like there's a pile of bricks on your chest, and generally you feel like no one understands but when you let it out it feels like you can breathe again. Your anger is a way for your depression to keep you in a cycle. You feel depressed, then you get angry, and your anger causes you to be depressed again. Honestly the only way I can think of to deal with it is to talk. To really talk...so you can't talk to someone you're afraid will judge you. You have to talk to someone you trust to not think bad of you no matter what you say, because honestly we say a LOT of horrible things we don't mean when we're angry and depressed. But if you find that person, talk to them...it will help you so much. Btw, I'm free anytime. I hope you feel better. I really do. And I know it's hard, but try to remember that no matter how bad you're feeling, it's only temporary and it will go away, and when it's over, you really don't want to end up feeling guilty for something you said to someone you love, or feel like an idiot for feeling so desperate at the time (i'm only speaking from experience). Sometimes you can't help it, but just trying to keep that in mind helps it not to happen as often I think. Anyway I didn't mean to write a book to you but I know how it feels not to feel like anyone is in your corner, and I just wanted you to know that I am.

[comb in reply to geektastikal]

Hey thank you for this. It made me feel better