Staying alive

[Starrlight]

I forced myself to draw to escape and cast out my demons onto paper in hopes of getting a break from thoughts like how I rather be dead than living. Thoughts of how I will leave. I have to be here for my loves, 💕 always to the best of my ability 💕 But i am barely making it it seems. I feel so broken down. Not well. I’m so angry. At God. At myself. At people close to me...When maybe my anguish is no ones’ fault except demons trying to knock me down..So i need angels helping me up...Otherwise I don’t understand how I can keep up and keep going. I can’t do it anymore. I have to find something but I don’t know what. I will keep praying for guidance.

[Want2BHappy3]

Nicely Said, take care

[Hidden]

Love the drawing starlight.💕

It’s good to have hope and I can hear you have hope.

Guidance will come, because you deserve it..

I’m wishing you peace 🌺🌻🌺🌻 xxx

[bridder01]

Wonderful drawing Starrlight! 😀

It's not how many times depression knocks you down that counts, it's how many times you get back up and fight! And if you need someone to stand next to you to help, I'm here for ya 😁

A friend,

Brian ☺

[Starrlight]

It’s hard to find words right now but thanks to you who responded here; you are appreciated.

[Hidden]

I'll be your Angel on earth!!! What talent you have & I am so saddened to hear you are so down. I'm here for you! Love & big warm hugs ! XXXXXXXXXXX

[Dubba61]

Lovely drawing, 🌟 star. You will find some ☮️ peace. Try not to wrestle with your thoughts, let them be. I draw too and make things, it helps immensely. Takes you mind away from yourself. Do some more n i,ll look forward to seeing the. Best of wishes. Dee 😊👍🌻

[fauxartist]

I'm sorry your suffering with this Starrlight...I found your drawing very interesting and unique...I like it very much...please maybe keep doing this work until this despair passes and hopefully one of those angels taps you on the shoulder with at least a step towards a direction that takes you out of this a bit more...I think you have talent....I do...and by expressing yourself through your art...it's like as if you have taken just a little bit of the power out of your pain...I know it did for me...I hope it helps you too....

[Starrlight in reply to fauxartist]

I’d like to see some of your art Fauxartist.

[fauxartist in reply to Starrlight]

my art was my ceramic art, which many think of as a craft...but it was once said to me: 'you cannot re-invent the wheel', but you can make a wheel like no one else has, put your own spin and signature on it, your own style..and that's the true art...my paintings were crap, but I used to draw pretty well. Now my love is photography...it's my own personal thing...nothing great

[Starrlight in reply to fauxartist]

Nice Fauxartist!

[lil_avocado]

art is one of the best ways to release any tension& stress you may have. it's an amazing way to cope. I do the same. I have a huge obsession with Japanese anime. I draw and draw and draw until I feel better and end up making a whole comic book lol just do the little things that make you feel okay again. that's all that matters. calming those nerves will help alot. blessings to you and I hope you feel better. this place is a great spot for venting. do it as you please. I'd love for you to feel okay again. always looking out. -aly 💟

[Starrlight in reply to lil_avocado]

That’s great that you draw anime. Right now not much makes me happy.

[old-soul]

You have a talent I have always wished I could develop myself, but was never able to. I have accepted and now embrace the fact that good art has no meaning unless there are people like me who really appriciate it so very much.

As long as I'm chiming in, I have to say to faux, I chuckled at the verbiage you choose about re-inventing the wheel. "Put you own SPIN on it," eh? Not sure if you thought about that statement, but it made me smile.

I enjoy exploring you work, starlight. You may not think your talent is something important, but honestly, I look at your composition and really admire and am stunned by the different elements and how you use them together.

I am very grateful you share some of your work with us, and I really do believe you could make a really good wage as an illustrator if the right person paid attention. Your work is really good, but I feel badly for the fact that to me it looks so beautiful knowing that to you it is an expression of your suffering. There is no beauty in deep emotional despair, so I have a difficult time reconciling the fact that I interoperate beauty in your work.

I hope you understand what I am saying. I hate the fact that you suffer. You seem like such a good and compassionate person.

[Starrlight]

I don’t know what to say I’ve had trouble communicating lately but thank you for the compliments. If I did not suffer I don’t know that the art would exsist. Have beauty in your day old-soul.

[Hidden]

Beautiful x

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

Thanks Amie31 how are you doing?