Hatred

[Cat26538]

I’m filled with anger and frustration and hatred. Idk what’s wrong with me. I’m having horrible panic attacks and wanting to seriously hurt myself. I can’t do this anymore. I’m seriously considering slitting my wrists or overdosing on pills.

[fauxartist]

Cat....your showing some pretty serious crisis here .... I am concerned for you...I would get yourself into urgent care ... sounds like you are just having a major meltdown...please get some help...I appreciate your sharing your pain...but it sounds bad, worse than what you usually post...your saying those words that make me think your over the edge right now...get help now...please

[Cat26538 in reply to fauxartist]

I’m ok now. I seriously needed to vent. I get like this a lot. I just let everything pile up to the point of exploding into those fits of rage and wanting to hurt myself.

[fauxartist in reply to Cat26538]

be careful...be good to yourself....you always have great support here...and keep going to the therapist.... I know you hate it... but if you can get some tools for coping and feeling better eventually...it's worth being a little un-comfortable going to a session...you'll be okay.

[Cat26538 in reply to fauxartist]

I will keep going to see my therapist. Thanks for your kind words

[Hidden]

Hey dear Cat --- you say you just "let everything pile up to the point of exploding..." --- So I hope that you can find a way to release this pain/tension/rage before it gets to such a point. Venting is okay though!!!!! <3 Who doesn't need a good vent now & then?

I'm also concerned for you tho, like fauxartist is. <3 <3 <3 xxxx

Just know i care and what I see that you post is actually extremely passionate, so I wonder....... well, there must be SOME way or something into which you can channel this passion (whether negative or positive) ---- but then I know when you feel so lousy, it is hard to even move around or function sometimes.

You have my support & friendship. Your pain is evident, and I don't want you to go through this (BUT you don't go through it alone.)

Love & Friendship!!!!! xx

[Cat26538 in reply to Hidden]

Thanks.