Anxiety causing me to want to be alone, but I really actually need someone or something to keep me going

I feel more inprisoned in my own apartment than I did in a 72 hour alcohol intervention program for my OVI. Constantly over analyzing everything and wishing I had a significant other but never have. Feel alone in this world besides when I’m with my friends. I recently moved to cinci and live alone and do not know many people. Not sure if this is anxiety or depression.

[EmLee96]

The over analyzing is anxiety, but if it isn't interfering with your daily life it is something that stems from your new adjustment. the loneliness is either just from adjusting to moving to a new city (which is to be expected and not considered a mental illness) or is a symptom along with the overanalyzing if you show other signs of depression (lack of interest sleeping too much or too little irritation etc).

If you just moved to a city try to look in the newspaper or on social media for events that you are interested in. Connect with people at your job or school. This will help with the loneliness and increase your chances of finding that someone.

Sometimes symptoms like yours are just from a major change in life, like moving to a place where you don't know anyone. Give it some time and if things don't get better, talk to your doctor or find a therapist!

[Hidden in reply to EmLee96]

Actually just started a career that led me to move to Dayton for 6 months then to cinci for my first assignment. I’m doing really well at work, but it does affect my morale and I can come off as an asshole as my boss even joked about because I’m very stubborn. This could be caused from the long hours and supervising union employees. I do feel that I will be in for a promotion within 3 years which will lead to another relocation. In the past I’ve had very bad luck with relationship (other than friendships.) I just did meet a couple cool people at the weekend intervention thing I went to for probation. I did have a connection with a married women a couple years older than me and that sounds normal because something always gets in the way when I’m interested in someone. Probably because we both felt comfortable talking about our experiences and past interests at a vulnerable time.

I felt weird when entering my apartment after the weekend thing at a hotel. It’s almost like I didn’t want to leave because I do make friends rather easily but it’s almost impossible to maintain when working long hours from a 1pm to midnight or later shift.

On the upside I will have a roommate in May but I’ve also had roommates throughout college and he was my best friend, but I have always felt some sort of anxiety or depression.

I know I’m all over the place right now, but too add I think I will be changes positions at work very soon as my boss says there will be operational changes and I’m excited for that. This could result in me working normal daytime shift at 50 hours rather than 55-60 and getting home super late.

[EmLee96 in reply to Hidden]

It sounds like you could benefit from talking to a therapist or someone else (family or friend). You said some things in that post that sounded like self hate speech and I think talking some things out might help.

Also, I think meds would help in your situation. Adjustment disorders are common and due to you having so many life changes you might just be in a constant cycle of it which stresses and tires the body out easily.