My friend made a good point to me today about my condition. I have been struggling for several months now (and in years past) and having some pretty bad days lately. Anyhow, when I'm feeling anxious or depressed, my mind typically races, as I imagine some of you are familiar with. I don't necessarily have any compulsions, nor repeat things over and over, urgently etc, but I do have routines and have always been on the meticulous and careful side.
But I was thinking today, or my friend recognized, that my thoroughness and attention to detail could be making things much worse for me. I'm constantly thinking about how to get better, what to eat or not eat, what meds to take, for how long, how much to exercise, what doctor to see, and so on and so on. And when I'm not feeling well physically, everything seems to get blown out of proportion. I'm on such high alert all the time and am conscious of every little thing going on a body, that any little disruption is exacerbated and I freak out. I can't just tolerate a little bit of nausea for any period of time for instance. The whole time I'm wondering if it's the side effects from Prozac, or if it's because I consumed some gluten, or my sugar is low, or just my anxiety, or any number of other causes.
Does anyone else experience anything like this? Would this be considered GAD? OCD? Both? Are the meds the same or different for each of these conditions? Maybe I'm not even being treated for the right issues? Ugh. I'm surely going to mention it to my therapist next week but am hoping to get some insight sooner. I need a hobby, lol.
Be well, all!