So Monday ill be 30 years old, i dont have a job no kids still live with my parents.
Im a carer for my mother but also my father , my mother has a bad heart and my father has MS.
A part of me thinks by this point i should of had a decent career or be in a relationship have kids or whatever.
I feel like i should feel worried that i have nothing to really show for my life.
For example tuesday i have the dentist, now before i would be anxious as hell, as that stuff normally makes me nervous but i dont feel anything.
Dont feel bothered about it at all and the dentist is always something that has bugged me out.
The last day or two ive stuffed my face stupid, again normally i would hate my self for it, even to th point it would trigger an urge to sh.
But again i dont feel any emotion about it.
I dont feel sad i dont feel happy , i dont know am i just content, am i numb i feel pretty confused to be honest. I honestly dont know what i feel